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Sunday, September 30, 2012
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Er....Like A Trainwreck?
I just finished the second book I checked out of the library, which was I, Michael Bennet by James Patterson and the ending.....I am disappoint, James Patterson. Or whoever actually wrote it. I really don't think he writes his books anymore. Not with the way they keep churning out. I can't even keep track of them anymore, of which ones I have read and haven't. I spent 10 minutes in the library the other day trying to remember if I actually read Eleventh Hour. And with the way they keep coming out, another Michael Bennet book better come out soon and that Perrine bastard dies.
Anyway, I am on my third book, which is Towelhead. And while it is an easy read, it's also difficult to read. There is an unbelievable amount of sex and masturbation talk, which you would think would not bother someone who is as sexually frustrated as I am, but it does, because I am not a fan of smut reading. Don't even get me started on that 50 Shades Of Shit shit, but let's just say I was not a fan of book burning until they came out. But the main character is 13 years old, and somehow she is smart when it comes to sex in some ways and completely stupid in others. Call me a prude, but I'd rather not read in-depth descriptions of masturbation, pubic hair, what happens when someone becomes turned on, and of a young man's erection. Unless I am reading a textbook on sexual topics, when proper anatomical terms are used.
I can't with sexual slang when it comes to the sexual anatomy. Either use the proper terminology or shut up. It's a penis and it's a vagina. Not a dick, pussy, cunt, or the absolute worst term I have ever seen in history, a mickey. I was reading a book one time and the usage of the word cunt to describe the main character's vagina annoyed me so much I finally stopped reading it.
And the most irritating part of the book is her parents. There such a thing as being strict, but good Lord her father is insane. And in one moment her mother is all nice to her, and in a split second she is putting her down. Almost every character in this book seems to be verbally abusive. This Amazon reviewer put it perfectly, minus the whole narcissistic personality disorder diagnonsense, because nowadays everyone has NPD, according to the internets:
I don't even want to finish it because it is so annoying, yet I really want to finish it. Go figure.
Anyway, I am on my third book, which is Towelhead. And while it is an easy read, it's also difficult to read. There is an unbelievable amount of sex and masturbation talk, which you would think would not bother someone who is as sexually frustrated as I am, but it does, because I am not a fan of smut reading. Don't even get me started on that 50 Shades Of Shit shit, but let's just say I was not a fan of book burning until they came out. But the main character is 13 years old, and somehow she is smart when it comes to sex in some ways and completely stupid in others. Call me a prude, but I'd rather not read in-depth descriptions of masturbation, pubic hair, what happens when someone becomes turned on, and of a young man's erection. Unless I am reading a textbook on sexual topics, when proper anatomical terms are used.
I can't with sexual slang when it comes to the sexual anatomy. Either use the proper terminology or shut up. It's a penis and it's a vagina. Not a dick, pussy, cunt, or the absolute worst term I have ever seen in history, a mickey. I was reading a book one time and the usage of the word cunt to describe the main character's vagina annoyed me so much I finally stopped reading it.
And the most irritating part of the book is her parents. There such a thing as being strict, but good Lord her father is insane. And in one moment her mother is all nice to her, and in a split second she is putting her down. Almost every character in this book seems to be verbally abusive. This Amazon reviewer put it perfectly, minus the whole narcissistic personality disorder diagnonsense, because nowadays everyone has NPD, according to the internets:
Both of Jasira's parents totally lack affect, (both of them?), human decency and basic kindness. They appear to be suffering from narcissistic personality disorders in their absorption with self, their sense of entitlement, lack of empathy and arrogance.Gee, those last 3 descriptions could describe me at times. Guess I have narcissistic personality disorder. *eye roll* Although....my last therapist asked me one time, "isn't that kind of narcissistic?". I don't recall why she asked me that. I think it might have been when I told her that a lot of times I don't care about other people's problems, but expect everyone to care about mine. I don't know how I ever got that mindset. It strikes me as odd for someone who loathes herself as much as I do that I do have times where I am a real narcissistic twat.
I don't even want to finish it because it is so annoying, yet I really want to finish it. Go figure.
Thursday, September 27, 2012
Random Thoughts
I completely regret my last post. See what I mean? I have not felt good since Monday and I'll give you one guess what immediately popped into my head. I'm tired, nauseous, feeling very off balance, and am having mid-cycle bleeding. Now all I keep wondering is, what if this bad feeling gets worse? What if I jinxed myself bringing up Addison's the other day, that if I had it, it would more than likely be apparent? What if it is deciding to become apparent now, since I brought it up? What if I am jinxing myself just merely talking about right now? It's a never-ending cycle!
And thanks to not feeling good, it has me in a pretty foul mood this week. There was a story on the news on Tuesday about a man who openly admitted to having a favorite child. My sister had been over earlier in the day and as usual my mother was all over her and nagging on me, and it left me in a bad mood, so I said "well, at least some people are honest about having a favorite", although when I said it, I hadn't really meant it to be directed at my mother. I was just crabby and nitpicking everything in sight. But she immediately got mad and said "don't ever say anything like that again; I do not have a favorite". Any parent who is angry over this should shut the hell up, because I guarantee there are plenty of parents out there who have a favorite child. Just like there are probably plenty of parents who regret having children.
I have been off the wall the past few days. The stupidest things are sending me over the edge. My sister shot me a message the other day on Facebook asking me if I would want to go to dinner on Thursday and I burst into tears. Why? Because I immediately panicked at gaining weight. I don't know what is worse- obsessing that there is something wrong with me, or obsessing over gaining weight. It was nice when I wasn't so concerned about my weight. I'm just so afraid that if I just let loose a little too much, I'll lose all self-control and all the weight I lost will come back.
A few weeks ago, I was home alone and the phone rang and it was some strange name and number, so I didn't answer. When the answering machine came on, it was some lawfirm calling for my father about a disability claim. I was like huh? Apparently, my father decided to apply for SS disability, because someone told him that he would get more money than what he gets from retirement. Which is true. And my dad is in pretty shitty shape, although most of his problems are due to being fat. But he is retired. He is already not working. There is no reason for him to get SS disability when someone who has to work, but cannot, could be getting it. I was so fucking pissed off when I found this out. And thank god my sister completely agrees with me. Way to play the system, old man. Just like all the welfare abusers you bitch about.
I don't know how people can abuse government aid. I feel horribly guilty being on unemployment.
So it wasn't that bad when I went up to the library the other day. I did not feel like I was being judged. But, um....I think I have gotten the One Direction infection. The CD is really good. I mean, it's pretty generic pop, and several songs reminded me of other pop songs, but I enjoyed it. Aside from the 3 songs I already knew ("What Makes You Beautiful", "One Thing" and "More Than This"), I am really smitten with "Stole My Heart" and "Tell Me A Lie".
And since he has become a big topic over on ONTD and other sites due to his recent break-up, let's talk about Liam. I have said many times that I just think Harry is adorable. He is very squeeable, but it's completely nonsexual. It's not even just his age, it's his face. He is way too baby-faced for me to ever think about sexually. If you showed me a picture of Harry from the neck down*, I'd be fap fap fapping, but then show me his face and I'd immediately be turned off and be all OH GOD WHY. And Louis, the only one I don't feel bad thinking sexual thoughts about, is good looking in most pictures, but is such an insufferable queen it cancels out any of the hotness. And the more I see him, the less I will be shocked if he ever pops up on a magazine with the words "I AM GAY" in giant letters**. But Liam? He seems like a sweet kid. And he is clearly the best looking one in the group. Very, very good-looking, that boy is (I love that ONTD member; not sure if it's a male or female, although I am think the former, but whatever it is, he or she is hilarious when it comes to Liam). Another curly-headed beauty. In fact, forget getting a picture of Harry and Andrew together. Someone get Liam and Andrew in a picture together and OH GOD TOO MUCH BEAUTY.
*problem is, the boy apparently has 4 nipples, so I would know who it was even if I didn't see a face
**I need to stop making gay jokes at him, because I will feel really awful if he ever did come out
And thanks to not feeling good, it has me in a pretty foul mood this week. There was a story on the news on Tuesday about a man who openly admitted to having a favorite child. My sister had been over earlier in the day and as usual my mother was all over her and nagging on me, and it left me in a bad mood, so I said "well, at least some people are honest about having a favorite", although when I said it, I hadn't really meant it to be directed at my mother. I was just crabby and nitpicking everything in sight. But she immediately got mad and said "don't ever say anything like that again; I do not have a favorite". Any parent who is angry over this should shut the hell up, because I guarantee there are plenty of parents out there who have a favorite child. Just like there are probably plenty of parents who regret having children.
I have been off the wall the past few days. The stupidest things are sending me over the edge. My sister shot me a message the other day on Facebook asking me if I would want to go to dinner on Thursday and I burst into tears. Why? Because I immediately panicked at gaining weight. I don't know what is worse- obsessing that there is something wrong with me, or obsessing over gaining weight. It was nice when I wasn't so concerned about my weight. I'm just so afraid that if I just let loose a little too much, I'll lose all self-control and all the weight I lost will come back.
A few weeks ago, I was home alone and the phone rang and it was some strange name and number, so I didn't answer. When the answering machine came on, it was some lawfirm calling for my father about a disability claim. I was like huh? Apparently, my father decided to apply for SS disability, because someone told him that he would get more money than what he gets from retirement. Which is true. And my dad is in pretty shitty shape, although most of his problems are due to being fat. But he is retired. He is already not working. There is no reason for him to get SS disability when someone who has to work, but cannot, could be getting it. I was so fucking pissed off when I found this out. And thank god my sister completely agrees with me. Way to play the system, old man. Just like all the welfare abusers you bitch about.
I don't know how people can abuse government aid. I feel horribly guilty being on unemployment.
So it wasn't that bad when I went up to the library the other day. I did not feel like I was being judged. But, um....I think I have gotten the One Direction infection. The CD is really good. I mean, it's pretty generic pop, and several songs reminded me of other pop songs, but I enjoyed it. Aside from the 3 songs I already knew ("What Makes You Beautiful", "One Thing" and "More Than This"), I am really smitten with "Stole My Heart" and "Tell Me A Lie".
And since he has become a big topic over on ONTD and other sites due to his recent break-up, let's talk about Liam. I have said many times that I just think Harry is adorable. He is very squeeable, but it's completely nonsexual. It's not even just his age, it's his face. He is way too baby-faced for me to ever think about sexually. If you showed me a picture of Harry from the neck down*, I'd be fap fap fapping, but then show me his face and I'd immediately be turned off and be all OH GOD WHY. And Louis, the only one I don't feel bad thinking sexual thoughts about, is good looking in most pictures, but is such an insufferable queen it cancels out any of the hotness. And the more I see him, the less I will be shocked if he ever pops up on a magazine with the words "I AM GAY" in giant letters**. But Liam? He seems like a sweet kid. And he is clearly the best looking one in the group. Very, very good-looking, that boy is (I love that ONTD member; not sure if it's a male or female, although I am think the former, but whatever it is, he or she is hilarious when it comes to Liam). Another curly-headed beauty. In fact, forget getting a picture of Harry and Andrew together. Someone get Liam and Andrew in a picture together and OH GOD TOO MUCH BEAUTY.
*problem is, the boy apparently has 4 nipples, so I would know who it was even if I didn't see a face
**I need to stop making gay jokes at him, because I will feel really awful if he ever did come out
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Random Thoughts
I am going through my Bookmarks list and I have a handful of links on Addison's disease and every time I highlight them to delete them, I can't bring myself to do it. It's been over a year. I think if I had it, it would be clear by now. But I still just cannot fully let it go.
I can't believe it has been almost a year since I lost my job. Where in the hell has the time gone? And it still hurts just as every bit as it did a year ago, possibly even more.
I can't believe it has been almost a year since I lost my job. Where in the hell has the time gone? And it still hurts just as every bit as it did a year ago, possibly even more.
Monday, September 24, 2012
The Bitch Please/WTF/SHUT YOUR WHORE MOUTH Of The Day
Joe O’Connor: Trend of couples not having children just plain selfish
I couldn't bring myself to read the article. I went straight to the comments. Hey Joe, why don't you ask my next neighbor about the whole your children will take care of you when you are old? Ask Khalil Wimes what he thinks of this. Oh wait. You can't! Because his asshole parents who never should have reproduced in the first place killed him!
I want to kick this guy in the nuts. Repeatedly. I just can't ev....*starts sputtering*
I couldn't bring myself to read the article. I went straight to the comments. Hey Joe, why don't you ask my next neighbor about the whole your children will take care of you when you are old? Ask Khalil Wimes what he thinks of this. Oh wait. You can't! Because his asshole parents who never should have reproduced in the first place killed him!
I want to kick this guy in the nuts. Repeatedly. I just can't ev....*starts sputtering*
Quote Of The Day
Don't know how I never used this before; from "Meet The Quagmires":
Peter: Death, that was totally worth it! It was even better than the time I stumbled into that fat, lonely women's club.A copy of One Direction's CD is finally available at the library for me to pick up. Much embarrassement will be felt when I finally decide to get off my fat ass and go pick it up.
[cutaway to Peter walking into the place he described. He holding a map, and announces for help]
Peter: Uh, 'scuse me, can I have directions to the provident Civic center?
Fat Ladies: Ooooooh!
[one of the ladies walks up to Peter]
Fat Lady: Do you like cake?
Peter: Yes.
Fat Lady: Do you like my ass?
Peter: Yes.
Fat Lady: Do you wanna eat cake off my ass?
Peter: What kind of cake?
Fat Lady: Angel Food Cake.
[Peter pulls out a fork]
Peter: Well, Rusty, it looks like we're gonna eat our way out of another jam.
Random Thoughts
Well, it's been an interesting weekend. Friday night, the group of us- me, my mom, sister, aunt, grandmom, my mom's friend and my aunt's friend- finally got together again and went to dinner. We went to the new Longhorn in Deptford. Where 99 used to be *sniffs*. You wouldn't even know it was a 99. God, I love Longhorn. And I had a REAL cheeseburger.
Saturday was just a WTF day. It was Irish Weekend down the shore and we usually go. My dad assumed we were going, but never said anything to anyone. And we ended up not going, due to that and due to my mom's car breaking down. My sister refused to offer up her car to go and my mother got mad at her, since they do nothing but drive her places all the time. I got the blunt end of her anger, that parents should be killed when they reach a certain age, and she wishes she could move far away so she doesn't have to deal with anyone anymore (really- do people still wonder why I am so fucked up in the head?). But I ended up just running to some stores, coming home, then running back out later. And having the fun of getting caught in a downpour.
Sunday we decided to go to down the shore for Irish Weekend. And thanks to the cold front moving in on Saturday, it was nice and cool out. It was a nice day overall.
ONTD put up a post on MGMT performing at the Joshua Light Show and I watched a little bit of it on Youtube, and it actually made me feel a little better about not going. Don't get me wrong, I still would have went had I gotten the chance. I honestly knew nothing about the Joshua Light Show, and I was far too lazy to research it, but the show was nothing like I expected. I thought they would be performing their usual songs, but they didn't. There was no singing. Just weird music. It was cool, I won't deny it, but it was one of those artsy shows I would have sat staring at in absolute horror and absolute fascination. I like weird things, but some things I just don't get.
I wonder why Andrew decided to grow his hair out again. I'm certainly not complaining, since he is about the only man I think can pull it off, but he kept it short for a long time. And it's odd to say about someone about to turn 30 years old in a few months, but he's getting so grown up looking! I still want someone to put him and Harry together in a picture so I can finally figure out why he reminds me of Andrew. That would make my day, to see them two together in a picture. Also, they share a birthday. February 1st was apparently a good day.
Picture #10.....dat ass.
Saturday was just a WTF day. It was Irish Weekend down the shore and we usually go. My dad assumed we were going, but never said anything to anyone. And we ended up not going, due to that and due to my mom's car breaking down. My sister refused to offer up her car to go and my mother got mad at her, since they do nothing but drive her places all the time. I got the blunt end of her anger, that parents should be killed when they reach a certain age, and she wishes she could move far away so she doesn't have to deal with anyone anymore (really- do people still wonder why I am so fucked up in the head?). But I ended up just running to some stores, coming home, then running back out later. And having the fun of getting caught in a downpour.
Sunday we decided to go to down the shore for Irish Weekend. And thanks to the cold front moving in on Saturday, it was nice and cool out. It was a nice day overall.
ONTD put up a post on MGMT performing at the Joshua Light Show and I watched a little bit of it on Youtube, and it actually made me feel a little better about not going. Don't get me wrong, I still would have went had I gotten the chance. I honestly knew nothing about the Joshua Light Show, and I was far too lazy to research it, but the show was nothing like I expected. I thought they would be performing their usual songs, but they didn't. There was no singing. Just weird music. It was cool, I won't deny it, but it was one of those artsy shows I would have sat staring at in absolute horror and absolute fascination. I like weird things, but some things I just don't get.
I wonder why Andrew decided to grow his hair out again. I'm certainly not complaining, since he is about the only man I think can pull it off, but he kept it short for a long time. And it's odd to say about someone about to turn 30 years old in a few months, but he's getting so grown up looking! I still want someone to put him and Harry together in a picture so I can finally figure out why he reminds me of Andrew. That would make my day, to see them two together in a picture. Also, they share a birthday. February 1st was apparently a good day.
Picture #10.....dat ass.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Random Thoughts
I just read an article on ONTD about the Backstreet Boys doing an Old Navy commercial. I never thought I would ever hear anything about them again after they died off. I liked the Backstreet Boys back in the day. N Sync and 98 Degrees, too. I wasn't a huge boy band fanatic, but I did like them. I saw N Sync in concert 2 times. I always think I liked BSB better, though. My sister was the bigger N Sync fan. And even though I was only about 6, I was a huge New Kids On The Block fan, too. Had everything under the sun- posters, pins, dolls, shirts, towels, bedsheets, you name it.
And when I look at the girls today who love One Direction and stuff, it really isn't that much different. And at the same time, it's an entirely different world. Now we have social media. All the information I got on the boy bands of my day were through magazines, TVs, and books. Now fans can actually follow them on Twitter and everything. But the thing I wonder the most- did the fans of past boy bands act like the ones nowadays? I don't know, because we didn't have internet access and social media access like now. Were they as vicious? Did they rip apart members of the band, anyone acquainted with the band, significant others, nonfans, each other?
I honestly have never seen anything like One Direction and Justin Bieber fans. I don't which one is worse, although I'm leaning towards One Direction fans. I've come across some decent ones. I like a lot of the fans on ONTD. Some of their comments are hilarious, especially this one member who really REALLY likes Zayn. But these other ones....I don't understand how you can say you are a fan of a group, and then sit there and rip members of the group apart. No one says you have to like every member, but how can you say you are a fan and then hurl homophobic and/or racist insults or wish God would kill a member (yes, I have actually seen this)?
I probably shouldn't have laughed as hard as I did at that one Tweet in the link provided above that says "God please kill @Louis_Tomlinson for me". It really isn't funny.
And even the fans themselves are turning on each other. It's nuts. I read an article the other day about Louis (god, sad that I actually know all of their names) throwing a temper tantrum on Twitter about the whole Larry thing and I think he may have singled out one particular girl and now that girl supposedly is getting death threats from fans. What is wrong with these kids? I have never seen such hatred come from people like these kids. Except psychopaths. If I am having a bad case of feeling really batty, I just have to visit a 1D forum and I automatically feel sane again.
And look, I can't blame him for his frustration with some of the abuse he gets, but Louis is such a fucking drama queen. It honestly would not ever surprise me if he turned out to be the gay one. There is something about his mannerism, something I cannot put my finger on, that tells me to not ever be surprised if he comes out. And I know I am horribly stereotyping here, but he acts just like every bitchy gay guy I have ever been acquainted with. He needs to just stand there and look pretty, because frankly, he is the only one I can fantasize about sexually, even though he reminds me of something I would have walked into my first day of gym class in elementary school. He looks like a gym teacher. A female one!
I finally got to try Five Guys and honestly, I expected a lot more. Everyone I know raves like maniacs about their burgers, and I guess if you like fast food burgers, I could see how these would be considered OMG SO AWESOME. I generally don't like fast food burgers. Once in a while I might get one at BK, but generally I stick with chicken. It was good, but I still prefer burgers from places like Friday's and Longhorn. Those two are still the best bacon cheeseburgers I have ever had.
I bitched about going to that party on Saturday, but it ended up not being that bad (I still would have much rather have been in NYC, though). It was a gorgeous day and yes, there had been plenty of good food. Too many yellow jackets, though. And the most shocking part of the day was I wasn't the first one to start complaining that I wanted to go home. Generally I'm always the first one to start bitching that I want to go home.
My cousin's husband happened to mention at the party about his mancave. Ugh, I am so sick of that term! My brother-in-law has one. Practically every man seems to have one. And someone in this forum worded it perfectly: "The phrase "man cave" makes my skin crawl. It just brings to mind so many of the most irritating male stereotypes."
And when I look at the girls today who love One Direction and stuff, it really isn't that much different. And at the same time, it's an entirely different world. Now we have social media. All the information I got on the boy bands of my day were through magazines, TVs, and books. Now fans can actually follow them on Twitter and everything. But the thing I wonder the most- did the fans of past boy bands act like the ones nowadays? I don't know, because we didn't have internet access and social media access like now. Were they as vicious? Did they rip apart members of the band, anyone acquainted with the band, significant others, nonfans, each other?
I honestly have never seen anything like One Direction and Justin Bieber fans. I don't which one is worse, although I'm leaning towards One Direction fans. I've come across some decent ones. I like a lot of the fans on ONTD. Some of their comments are hilarious, especially this one member who really REALLY likes Zayn. But these other ones....I don't understand how you can say you are a fan of a group, and then sit there and rip members of the group apart. No one says you have to like every member, but how can you say you are a fan and then hurl homophobic and/or racist insults or wish God would kill a member (yes, I have actually seen this)?
I probably shouldn't have laughed as hard as I did at that one Tweet in the link provided above that says "God please kill @Louis_Tomlinson for me". It really isn't funny.
And even the fans themselves are turning on each other. It's nuts. I read an article the other day about Louis (god, sad that I actually know all of their names) throwing a temper tantrum on Twitter about the whole Larry thing and I think he may have singled out one particular girl and now that girl supposedly is getting death threats from fans. What is wrong with these kids? I have never seen such hatred come from people like these kids. Except psychopaths. If I am having a bad case of feeling really batty, I just have to visit a 1D forum and I automatically feel sane again.
And look, I can't blame him for his frustration with some of the abuse he gets, but Louis is such a fucking drama queen. It honestly would not ever surprise me if he turned out to be the gay one. There is something about his mannerism, something I cannot put my finger on, that tells me to not ever be surprised if he comes out. And I know I am horribly stereotyping here, but he acts just like every bitchy gay guy I have ever been acquainted with. He needs to just stand there and look pretty, because frankly, he is the only one I can fantasize about sexually, even though he reminds me of something I would have walked into my first day of gym class in elementary school. He looks like a gym teacher. A female one!
I finally got to try Five Guys and honestly, I expected a lot more. Everyone I know raves like maniacs about their burgers, and I guess if you like fast food burgers, I could see how these would be considered OMG SO AWESOME. I generally don't like fast food burgers. Once in a while I might get one at BK, but generally I stick with chicken. It was good, but I still prefer burgers from places like Friday's and Longhorn. Those two are still the best bacon cheeseburgers I have ever had.
I bitched about going to that party on Saturday, but it ended up not being that bad (I still would have much rather have been in NYC, though). It was a gorgeous day and yes, there had been plenty of good food. Too many yellow jackets, though. And the most shocking part of the day was I wasn't the first one to start complaining that I wanted to go home. Generally I'm always the first one to start bitching that I want to go home.
My cousin's husband happened to mention at the party about his mancave. Ugh, I am so sick of that term! My brother-in-law has one. Practically every man seems to have one. And someone in this forum worded it perfectly: "The phrase "man cave" makes my skin crawl. It just brings to mind so many of the most irritating male stereotypes."
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
Video Of The Day
I loved this song back in the day. I used to see it on VH-1 a lot. Back when, like MTV, they played music videos and not trashy reality shows:
Monday, September 17, 2012
The Bitch, Please! Of The Day
The Cops Finally Take Away Amanda Bynes' Death Machine, Lindsay Delusionhan Is Not Impressed
You know what? I take back what I said about Amanda. For now. I'll give her a bit more time to see what stupid shit she may do before I decide to reinstate what I said. As for now, I'd like to see Amanda take out this dumb bitch and her stupid mother in one shot.
On another note, I was reading a Facebook thread on STFU Parents' page and boy, the mommies have themselves in an uproar over another member who had a migraine one time and she asked a woman to quiet her kids. It's hard to control a crying child! You wait until you are a parent! Wah! Wah! Wah! I'm not the most rational person, but if I had a migraine and a child was screaming and Mommy ain't doing anything about it, I'd be flipping out too. The comments that are killing me the most are the ones that this young woman's migraines aren't other people's problems. Well, the fact that you can't control your child isn't my problem. If I showed even the slightest hint of a tantrum, my mom grabbed my arm and took me outside. I'm so tired of hearing parents whine about parenthood. You chose to be a parent! Deal with what comes along with it!
I was born 8 days early. I must have been in a rush to get into the world to get out faster.
You know what? I take back what I said about Amanda. For now. I'll give her a bit more time to see what stupid shit she may do before I decide to reinstate what I said. As for now, I'd like to see Amanda take out this dumb bitch and her stupid mother in one shot.
On another note, I was reading a Facebook thread on STFU Parents' page and boy, the mommies have themselves in an uproar over another member who had a migraine one time and she asked a woman to quiet her kids. It's hard to control a crying child! You wait until you are a parent! Wah! Wah! Wah! I'm not the most rational person, but if I had a migraine and a child was screaming and Mommy ain't doing anything about it, I'd be flipping out too. The comments that are killing me the most are the ones that this young woman's migraines aren't other people's problems. Well, the fact that you can't control your child isn't my problem. If I showed even the slightest hint of a tantrum, my mom grabbed my arm and took me outside. I'm so tired of hearing parents whine about parenthood. You chose to be a parent! Deal with what comes along with it!
I was born 8 days early. I must have been in a rush to get into the world to get out faster.
Please Stop!
I thought after Sept 8th, and with the weather being somewhat cooler, that maybe, just maybe, we were finally out of the crazy weather zone, even just for a little bit. But no:
I can't with this shit anymore. My stomach has been in knots since I went to bed. I feel like vomiting. I am sitting in a closed up house with no fan and no air conditioner running and am shaking from anxiety and from feeling cold (I always get chilled when I am really anxious). Every time I go on the SPC or which ever weather webpage, I get even more anxious of what the latest prediction is going to say. SPC has the Mid-Atlantic under a slight risk for severe weather. The TOR:CON is currently sitting at a 3 for NJ. And it would be easy to say well why don't I just stay off the different weather pages, but.....yeah. Not going to happen. Easier said than done.
The next 36+ hours should be a blast.
ETA 9/18 1:58PM: Tornado watch until 7PM. TOR:CON bumped to a 5. The SPC upgraded the Mid-Atlantic to a moderate risk of severe weather. The SPC also has a 10% tornado probability for my area and much of the surrounding areas. For this particular tornado watch, the SPC has a moderate chance, or 50% chance, of a tornado, 20% of an EF-2 or higher. There is a 500% chance of a nervous breakdown within the next 12 hours.
5:14PM: CAN THIS DAY GET OVER ALREADY?!
5:36PM: TOR:CON knocked to a 3. SPC knocked the tornado probability from 10% down to 5%. Anxiety levels still just as high, if not higher. I will not rest until I hear the words "the system continues to break apart" or "the system has passed through". I'm so anxious, I don't even want to eat. As I have said before, you know my anxiety is bad when that happens. And I wish I had a bottle of vodka. I could use a shot. Or 2. Or 7.
5:47PM: The squall line is not far.
*crosses fingers* Please start breaking up! Please break up!
9:56PM: The squall line came through my area about 6:30PM or so. A lot of rain, not terrible wind, but still quite a bit. I saw one flash of lightening, and heard a few booms of thunder. And that was pretty much it. The tornado watch had been extended to 9PM. I think the system is out of here, but my local news said not to let down guard until after midnight. So I will do just that. Even though I just found this Tweet from the Weather Channel.
ETA 9/19 1:18AM: I think it is finally safe for me to say....ADIOS!
Maybe now I can get a good night's sleep, considering I barely slept at all last night. Hey Mother Nature....can we not do this again for a long time? Preferably never again?
I can't with this shit anymore. My stomach has been in knots since I went to bed. I feel like vomiting. I am sitting in a closed up house with no fan and no air conditioner running and am shaking from anxiety and from feeling cold (I always get chilled when I am really anxious). Every time I go on the SPC or which ever weather webpage, I get even more anxious of what the latest prediction is going to say. SPC has the Mid-Atlantic under a slight risk for severe weather. The TOR:CON is currently sitting at a 3 for NJ. And it would be easy to say well why don't I just stay off the different weather pages, but.....yeah. Not going to happen. Easier said than done.
The next 36+ hours should be a blast.
ETA 9/18 1:58PM: Tornado watch until 7PM. TOR:CON bumped to a 5. The SPC upgraded the Mid-Atlantic to a moderate risk of severe weather. The SPC also has a 10% tornado probability for my area and much of the surrounding areas. For this particular tornado watch, the SPC has a moderate chance, or 50% chance, of a tornado, 20% of an EF-2 or higher. There is a 500% chance of a nervous breakdown within the next 12 hours.
5:14PM: CAN THIS DAY GET OVER ALREADY?!
5:36PM: TOR:CON knocked to a 3. SPC knocked the tornado probability from 10% down to 5%. Anxiety levels still just as high, if not higher. I will not rest until I hear the words "the system continues to break apart" or "the system has passed through". I'm so anxious, I don't even want to eat. As I have said before, you know my anxiety is bad when that happens. And I wish I had a bottle of vodka. I could use a shot. Or 2. Or 7.
5:47PM: The squall line is not far.
*crosses fingers* Please start breaking up! Please break up!
9:56PM: The squall line came through my area about 6:30PM or so. A lot of rain, not terrible wind, but still quite a bit. I saw one flash of lightening, and heard a few booms of thunder. And that was pretty much it. The tornado watch had been extended to 9PM. I think the system is out of here, but my local news said not to let down guard until after midnight. So I will do just that. Even though I just found this Tweet from the Weather Channel.
ETA 9/19 1:18AM: I think it is finally safe for me to say....ADIOS!
Maybe now I can get a good night's sleep, considering I barely slept at all last night. Hey Mother Nature....can we not do this again for a long time? Preferably never again?
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Saturday, September 15, 2012
The Absolutely Unbelievable Mind-Blowing WTF Of The Day
How To Buy a Daughter
I've shared my opinion of abortion clear more times than I can count. I am about as pro-choice as they come. But this:
I completely agree with this part:
I support science wholeheartedly. There have been some amazing things done in science. But this is not amazing. This is just downright terrifying. This is playing God. It's as bad as IVF. I don't care how rotten and cruel my opinion is of IVF- if you can't conceive, FUCKING LISTEN TO YOUR BODY. Something is not right for a baby to grow in! And the thing that irritates me the most are these dumbasses who go through IVF and then stand there and say they are not destroying eggs because then they'd be playing God. What the fuck do you think IVF is?
I must be weird. I would never, EVER want daughters.
I've shared my opinion of abortion clear more times than I can count. I am about as pro-choice as they come. But this:
Desperate for a baby girl, Simpson and her husband drove four hours to a fertility clinic in Michigan. Gender selection is illegal in Canada, which is why the couple turned to the United States. They paid $800 for a procedure that sorts sperm based on the assumption that sperm carrying a Y chromosome swim faster in a protein solution than sperm with an X chromosome do. Simpson was inseminated with the slower sperm that same day. Fifteen weeks later, she asked a colleague at the hospital to sneak in an after-hours ultrasound. The results felt like a brick landing on her stomach: another boy. “I lay in bed and cried for weeks,” said Simpson, now 36, whose name has been changed to protect her privacy. She took a job in the operating room so she would no longer have to work with women who were giving birth to girls. Simpson and her husband talked about getting an abortion, but she decided to continue with the pregnancy.Let me run through this again. She cried for weeks because she was going to have a boy. They contemplated aborting a baby....because it was a boy. Because it wasn't a little girl that Mommy Dearest could dress in pink and mold into pre-feminist, century old stereotypes. This woman "took a job in the operating room so she would no longer have to work with women who were giving birth to girls". Oh yeah. This woman clearly sounds mentally stable to continue breeding. But people who choose to be childfree are selfish for not wanting to reproduce. I just can't even with this. God help that poor child if he ever comes across this article one day.
I completely agree with this part:
“It’s high-tech eugenics,” said Marcy Darnovsky, director of the Center for Genetics and Society, a Berkeley, Calif. nonprofit focused on reproductive technologies. “If you’re going through the trouble and expense to select a child of a certain sex, you’re encouraging gender stereotypes that are damaging to women and girls. …What if you get a girl who wants to play basketball? You can’t send her back.”Hopefully the daughter this nutcase wanted oh so badly grows up to be a big butch lesbian.
I support science wholeheartedly. There have been some amazing things done in science. But this is not amazing. This is just downright terrifying. This is playing God. It's as bad as IVF. I don't care how rotten and cruel my opinion is of IVF- if you can't conceive, FUCKING LISTEN TO YOUR BODY. Something is not right for a baby to grow in! And the thing that irritates me the most are these dumbasses who go through IVF and then stand there and say they are not destroying eggs because then they'd be playing God. What the fuck do you think IVF is?
I must be weird. I would never, EVER want daughters.
Friday, September 14, 2012
Quote Of The Day
From "Hell Is Other Robots":
Bender: Friends! Friends! Surely you're not going to eat before we say Robot Grace? [The staff grumble. Bender closes his eyes.] In the name of all that is good and logical we give thanks for the chemical energy we are about to absorb. To quote the prophet Jerematic: 1000101010101...
[Time Lapse. The staff have given up praying and anxiously wait for Bender to finish.]
Bender: ...0010110012. Amen.
Planet. Off. STAT.
Breaking News of the Day: Protests Escalate Across Mideast
All this turmoil and violence over a stupid video?
You know what? I am tired of this bullshit. There is absolutely no reasoning with these people. Either they need to be wiped off the face of the earth or just left alone with the hopes that eventually they'll kill each other off. I feel terrible saying that because like with all things, there are probably good people in the Middle East. But this is ridiculous. One stupid video made by one stupid asshole and they're killing people and want to attack America.
I like when the reasoning for gas prices going up is turmoil in the Middle East. Uh, when is there NOT turmoil in the Middle East? That's like saying gas prices are going up because the sun shone today. And OF COURSE this all happens in a presidential election year. I'm not normally one for conspiracy theories, but it makes you- well, me at least- wonder.
And what is up with that dumb bitch Amanda Bynes? No one has heard a peep from her in years, then one day she pops up in the news for something I can't care enough to remember, and now she is constantly in the news doing something stupid. Lindsay Blohan 2.0. The both of them need to just fuck off and die already. I have been trying to cut back on my death wishes for other people, but these two dumb cunts clearly don't care how their actions put OTHER PEOPLE'S LIVES at risk, so why should I, or anyone, give a fuck about them? But we all know what will happen. One of the boneheads will cause an accident and some innocent person will die instead.
On another note, ugh, I want to go to NYC to see that light show so bad tomorrow night. Instead, I'll be at some 50th wedding anniversary party with a whole bunch of people I really don't want to be around. And it's going to be like every other party, but worse now that my sister is pregnant. I shouldn't even waste my time going. But if I stay home, then I will sit and dwell over the fact that I am not in NYC watching 2 of my 5 favorite musicians put on probably what will be a fucking AWESOME show. Don't get me wrong, I'll still do it at the party, but I'll have some things to distract me- I'm sure I will be stuffing my face with lots of good food (hopefully; it is the Italian side of the family), and mostly about how much I don't want to be there.
Man, I am in such a horrible mood today.
All this turmoil and violence over a stupid video?
You know what? I am tired of this bullshit. There is absolutely no reasoning with these people. Either they need to be wiped off the face of the earth or just left alone with the hopes that eventually they'll kill each other off. I feel terrible saying that because like with all things, there are probably good people in the Middle East. But this is ridiculous. One stupid video made by one stupid asshole and they're killing people and want to attack America.
I like when the reasoning for gas prices going up is turmoil in the Middle East. Uh, when is there NOT turmoil in the Middle East? That's like saying gas prices are going up because the sun shone today. And OF COURSE this all happens in a presidential election year. I'm not normally one for conspiracy theories, but it makes you- well, me at least- wonder.
And what is up with that dumb bitch Amanda Bynes? No one has heard a peep from her in years, then one day she pops up in the news for something I can't care enough to remember, and now she is constantly in the news doing something stupid. Lindsay Blohan 2.0. The both of them need to just fuck off and die already. I have been trying to cut back on my death wishes for other people, but these two dumb cunts clearly don't care how their actions put OTHER PEOPLE'S LIVES at risk, so why should I, or anyone, give a fuck about them? But we all know what will happen. One of the boneheads will cause an accident and some innocent person will die instead.
On another note, ugh, I want to go to NYC to see that light show so bad tomorrow night. Instead, I'll be at some 50th wedding anniversary party with a whole bunch of people I really don't want to be around. And it's going to be like every other party, but worse now that my sister is pregnant. I shouldn't even waste my time going. But if I stay home, then I will sit and dwell over the fact that I am not in NYC watching 2 of my 5 favorite musicians put on probably what will be a fucking AWESOME show. Don't get me wrong, I'll still do it at the party, but I'll have some things to distract me- I'm sure I will be stuffing my face with lots of good food (hopefully; it is the Italian side of the family), and mostly about how much I don't want to be there.
Man, I am in such a horrible mood today.
Thursday, September 13, 2012
The Headline Of The Day
Man Pays $137 Traffic Ticket With 137 Origami Pigs In Donut Boxes (PHOTOS, VIDEO)
What makes the article even funnier is the 5 minutes it took me to put together pigs+donuts=cops.
I am certainly not the smartest person on earth, but man, do I have some dumb moments!
What makes the article even funnier is the 5 minutes it took me to put together pigs+donuts=cops.
I am certainly not the smartest person on earth, but man, do I have some dumb moments!
Random Thoughts
Well, I finally got my letter today informing me that yes, I am eligible for an extension. I'm relieved, but I would still give anything to not be on unemployment. I feel like such a loser. I guess that is why I have always been hesitant to ever apply for disability. I would never, EVER stay on disability if I got it. I would only stay on it until I could get my damn illness under control. And yet I feel like by applying I am giving into my illness. But when your life is pretty much taken over by your illness, isn't it pretty much the same thing? Because that is what has happened. I have given into it. I finally allowed it to take over my life. And I have no idea how take control again.
I always laugh when my mom complains about my behavior. Except for my tendency to fly off the handle over things, I'm not really that bad of a person. I never got into trouble. Never got detention. I never did drugs. I never drank. I certainly didn't sleep around. But when you listen to my mother, you'd think that I was some devil worshipping drug-selling heathen. Well, I'm not. And do you know why? Because I grew up with so much fear instilled in me from my parents that I never took any risks. It was never the good things that could come out of doing something. It was always this horrible thing could happen or that horrible thing could happen. Or "even I won't do something like that". I was always too chicken shit to do anything. And I'm still that way.
Like when I wanted to attempt to drive to Bethlehem. Instead of just encouraging me to give it a try, I had to hear everything that could go wrong with driving up there. And I'm too inexperienced. And "I won't even drive roads like that". And those roads are crazy. Blah blah blah. And I was stupid enough to give into it all.
It's kind of funny (not really) when I think about how I did not have a terrible childhood yet there are plenty of things in how I was raised to explain why I am so fucked up in the head.
I finished reading a debate on suicide earlier and it left me feeling depressed. Again, I can never stress enough how no one can understand suicidal feelings until they experience them. There was talk of suicide being a way to weed out stupid people and similar comments. Whatever. Fuck you, assholes. If you ask me, anyone who voluntarily takes their life is smart, because they are getting away from all of the fucking evil and stupidity in the world.
When it comes to religious beliefs, I am never really sure what I believe in. I believe there is something, but I am just not entirely sure what. And heaven and hell, I am not sure of either. I have no idea what to believe in happening to you after you die. Being raised Catholic, one of the only things I remember distinctly learning, besides the fact that I am beneath everything because I have a uterus, is that people who commit suicide go to hell. I wasn't really experiencing emotional problems then, but it did bother me when I learned about it. I had a difficult time believing it. I don't like to think that God would not have some kind of understanding of the emotional turmoil one is going through when they commit suicide. Especially if it could be proven that someone who is suicidal is due to a malfunction in the brain. And if He doesn't understand, then I am not sure I want to believe in someone like that.
I always laugh when my mom complains about my behavior. Except for my tendency to fly off the handle over things, I'm not really that bad of a person. I never got into trouble. Never got detention. I never did drugs. I never drank. I certainly didn't sleep around. But when you listen to my mother, you'd think that I was some devil worshipping drug-selling heathen. Well, I'm not. And do you know why? Because I grew up with so much fear instilled in me from my parents that I never took any risks. It was never the good things that could come out of doing something. It was always this horrible thing could happen or that horrible thing could happen. Or "even I won't do something like that". I was always too chicken shit to do anything. And I'm still that way.
Like when I wanted to attempt to drive to Bethlehem. Instead of just encouraging me to give it a try, I had to hear everything that could go wrong with driving up there. And I'm too inexperienced. And "I won't even drive roads like that". And those roads are crazy. Blah blah blah. And I was stupid enough to give into it all.
It's kind of funny (not really) when I think about how I did not have a terrible childhood yet there are plenty of things in how I was raised to explain why I am so fucked up in the head.
I finished reading a debate on suicide earlier and it left me feeling depressed. Again, I can never stress enough how no one can understand suicidal feelings until they experience them. There was talk of suicide being a way to weed out stupid people and similar comments. Whatever. Fuck you, assholes. If you ask me, anyone who voluntarily takes their life is smart, because they are getting away from all of the fucking evil and stupidity in the world.
When it comes to religious beliefs, I am never really sure what I believe in. I believe there is something, but I am just not entirely sure what. And heaven and hell, I am not sure of either. I have no idea what to believe in happening to you after you die. Being raised Catholic, one of the only things I remember distinctly learning, besides the fact that I am beneath everything because I have a uterus, is that people who commit suicide go to hell. I wasn't really experiencing emotional problems then, but it did bother me when I learned about it. I had a difficult time believing it. I don't like to think that God would not have some kind of understanding of the emotional turmoil one is going through when they commit suicide. Especially if it could be proven that someone who is suicidal is due to a malfunction in the brain. And if He doesn't understand, then I am not sure I want to believe in someone like that.
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
Random Thoughts
God, I am so damn cranky right now, I am getting on my own nerves. Well, I always get on my own nerves, so I am getting on them more than usual.
I came across a comment earlier that I had posted on another site and someone had responded to it. Obnoxiously. It annoyed me so much I responded back more nastily than I usually do on the internet (but not as nastily as I would have liked; then again, if I ever responded like I would really like to, I would probably get banned from websites). Normally I just try to be civilized, passive aggressive, or I just ignore it completely because I don't feel like wasting my time getting into an argument with some dumbass. This dope's response is pissing me off to no end, though. Because I am a giant idiot who allows shit like this to bother me.
The internet.....assholes. Assholes everywhere.
Every night I watch the news, the level of stupidity in humanity just astonishes me. The other day some dude fell of an elevator and was seriously injured at Revel casino. He was supposedly sitting on the rubber hand rail. Why would you sit on a moving hand rail? That is just pure stupidity. It made my brain hurt when I heard the story.
And I am so sick and tired of hearing about all of the crime in my beloved Philadelphia. Not that it would do anything, but I feel like hooking up a speaker system all over and screaming "STOP BREAKING THE LAW ASSHOLES!". It's aggravating. Stop ruining my birthplace, you lowlifes!
Still haven't heard from unemployment yet whether I will have an extension, so now I have myself all worried over that.
Hm, I had a million things to talk about when I started this and they all just completely disappeared from my brain. Boy, that sucks. I guess. Meh. Not really.
I came across a comment earlier that I had posted on another site and someone had responded to it. Obnoxiously. It annoyed me so much I responded back more nastily than I usually do on the internet (but not as nastily as I would have liked; then again, if I ever responded like I would really like to, I would probably get banned from websites). Normally I just try to be civilized, passive aggressive, or I just ignore it completely because I don't feel like wasting my time getting into an argument with some dumbass. This dope's response is pissing me off to no end, though. Because I am a giant idiot who allows shit like this to bother me.
The internet.....assholes. Assholes everywhere.
Every night I watch the news, the level of stupidity in humanity just astonishes me. The other day some dude fell of an elevator and was seriously injured at Revel casino. He was supposedly sitting on the rubber hand rail. Why would you sit on a moving hand rail? That is just pure stupidity. It made my brain hurt when I heard the story.
And I am so sick and tired of hearing about all of the crime in my beloved Philadelphia. Not that it would do anything, but I feel like hooking up a speaker system all over and screaming "STOP BREAKING THE LAW ASSHOLES!". It's aggravating. Stop ruining my birthplace, you lowlifes!
Still haven't heard from unemployment yet whether I will have an extension, so now I have myself all worried over that.
Hm, I had a million things to talk about when I started this and they all just completely disappeared from my brain. Boy, that sucks. I guess. Meh. Not really.
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
An Angry Letter To The Person Who Created Infinite Scroll
Dear Infinite Scroll Creator:
I HATE YOU
Sincerely,
S-Cubed
I HATE YOU
Sincerely,
S-Cubed
Monday, September 10, 2012
Random Thoughts
I swear to God, I know I have bad PMS, but my tolerance of stupidity
is almost nonexistant now. I was at the market earlier and there was this
lady pushing a cart with her two kids in it, and the one kid was sitting
on the ledge on the front of the cart. One wrong move and he would have
fell backwards and hit something and probably injured himself. But it's okay. Mommy would have just
went and sued Shoprite because she is a stupid moron who doesn't know
how to parent.
I was also on a site earlier reading through comments and once again, I was coming across comments complaining about white people. You know what? Go to hell. Yes, I agree that there are many, MANY stupid white people. But there plenty of stupid people in other races as well. Every race has an incredible amount of stupid people. Humans are just stupid in general.
And in another section, someone called Jay-Z a coon (sorry). When confronted, she said she's black, she can use it. My bad. I forgot it is okay for different races to use derogatory terms.
My eyes are rolling so far into the back of my head, I have no idea how I am typing.
And I am also tired of seeing commercials for the X-Factor. Who in the hell are Britney Spears and Demi Lovato to tell other people they can't sing? Britney, the queen of autotune and Demi the Disney product. I can't stand her face and if any of the things I have read on Blind Gossip are true about her, then I really can't stand looking at her. If she really is there preaching sobriety and still doing drugs, someone should punch her in the face. And while I actually kind of like "Give Your Heart A Break", that "Skyscraper" song makes me want to go postal. The first time I heard it was at the bowling alley and a quarter of the way through, I was ready to start hurling bowling balls into the speaker system. It's like listening to a screeching dying cat.
Boy, my area really lucked out on those storms on Saturday. South and North of me got hit and somehow right before the system came my way, it started to break apart. I went to dinner with my sister and brother-in-law and it started to get kind of dark and when we got to Chili's, it started to rain some. And that was all it did the rest of the night. I was still kind of nervous the whole night, until I got home and checked the radars and saw that the system was moving out of the area, and then I began to relax. I wanted to sit on the floor and sob in relief. I was such a wreck. When I was heading out, I sat in my bedroom and kept thinking, god I hope this is not the last time I sit in my bedroom, and I was worried about leaving my parents home.
I went to claim my biweekly benefits on Thursday, only to discover my first extension benefits have been exhausted. I may be eligible for another extension, so now I have to wait and see what happens with that, so I am going to be a nervous wreck about that. I just want to cry. I don't want to be on unemployment anymore. I just want my damn job back. I don't care if it was over a year ago I was laid off, it is still affecting me just as bad as my last day.
I don't want to feel worse, but at this point, I am begging to hit rock bottom.
I was also on a site earlier reading through comments and once again, I was coming across comments complaining about white people. You know what? Go to hell. Yes, I agree that there are many, MANY stupid white people. But there plenty of stupid people in other races as well. Every race has an incredible amount of stupid people. Humans are just stupid in general.
And in another section, someone called Jay-Z a coon (sorry). When confronted, she said she's black, she can use it. My bad. I forgot it is okay for different races to use derogatory terms.
My eyes are rolling so far into the back of my head, I have no idea how I am typing.
And I am also tired of seeing commercials for the X-Factor. Who in the hell are Britney Spears and Demi Lovato to tell other people they can't sing? Britney, the queen of autotune and Demi the Disney product. I can't stand her face and if any of the things I have read on Blind Gossip are true about her, then I really can't stand looking at her. If she really is there preaching sobriety and still doing drugs, someone should punch her in the face. And while I actually kind of like "Give Your Heart A Break", that "Skyscraper" song makes me want to go postal. The first time I heard it was at the bowling alley and a quarter of the way through, I was ready to start hurling bowling balls into the speaker system. It's like listening to a screeching dying cat.
Boy, my area really lucked out on those storms on Saturday. South and North of me got hit and somehow right before the system came my way, it started to break apart. I went to dinner with my sister and brother-in-law and it started to get kind of dark and when we got to Chili's, it started to rain some. And that was all it did the rest of the night. I was still kind of nervous the whole night, until I got home and checked the radars and saw that the system was moving out of the area, and then I began to relax. I wanted to sit on the floor and sob in relief. I was such a wreck. When I was heading out, I sat in my bedroom and kept thinking, god I hope this is not the last time I sit in my bedroom, and I was worried about leaving my parents home.
I went to claim my biweekly benefits on Thursday, only to discover my first extension benefits have been exhausted. I may be eligible for another extension, so now I have to wait and see what happens with that, so I am going to be a nervous wreck about that. I just want to cry. I don't want to be on unemployment anymore. I just want my damn job back. I don't care if it was over a year ago I was laid off, it is still affecting me just as bad as my last day.
I don't want to feel worse, but at this point, I am begging to hit rock bottom.
Sunday, September 9, 2012
The Moronic Comment Of The Day
By Philly.com user cadet, in response to this Dear Abby letter:
"Get over it. Everyone's entitled to present themselves to the world as they see fit."*busts up laughing* Are you kidding me? You are comparing someone simply dressing like a woman to mafiosos, gang members, etc? Someone who simply dresses like a woman to people who kill and destroy lives? Really? Are you fucking kidding me?
So you have no problems with people presenting themselves to the world as gang members? members of the mafia? a serial murderer? a rapist? muggers? armed robbers? pedophiles?
Just as you claim everyone is entitle to present themselves as they see fit, moms are allowed to raise their kids as they see fit, even if you don't agree with it.
Video Of The Day
The lyrics....Ben and Andrew doing pushups and boxing with each other TOPLESS....the music....Andrew singing "I said you know you wanna check out my components yeah that's right you know you wanna check out my components"
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That Peekaru thing....why?
Do you know what should be on this list? These. It's unhealthy how much I hate those things. They are the most riduculous things I have ever seen. I went to Chili's for dinner and some couple walks in with their baby girl and she had one of those abominations on and I swear the flower was about twice the size of the baby's head. It was ridiculous looking.
Ugh. I don't care how much of an uppity bitch it makes me sound, but when I read through parenting magazines and parenting forums, I am more and more glad I am never going to be a mother. Women are ridiculous when they become mothers. Especially those ones who are all life isn't complete without a baby blah blah blah. Bullshit. If I had a baby right now, it would ruin my life. Well, more than I have already ruined it. I would love it, of course, but to be frank, I would never be able to love a child the way it should be loved.
And the argument of who will take care of you when you are old always slays me. Yeah, because having a child always guarantees someone will be there to take care of you when you are old and annoying. Give me a break. Besides, I intend on offing myself at 50 years old anyway, although the idea of doing it at a younger age appeals to me more and more.
On another note, Antenna TV has rolled the Three Stooges back to 1:00AM. I am so full of joy!
That Peekaru thing....why?
Do you know what should be on this list? These. It's unhealthy how much I hate those things. They are the most riduculous things I have ever seen. I went to Chili's for dinner and some couple walks in with their baby girl and she had one of those abominations on and I swear the flower was about twice the size of the baby's head. It was ridiculous looking.
Ugh. I don't care how much of an uppity bitch it makes me sound, but when I read through parenting magazines and parenting forums, I am more and more glad I am never going to be a mother. Women are ridiculous when they become mothers. Especially those ones who are all life isn't complete without a baby blah blah blah. Bullshit. If I had a baby right now, it would ruin my life. Well, more than I have already ruined it. I would love it, of course, but to be frank, I would never be able to love a child the way it should be loved.
And the argument of who will take care of you when you are old always slays me. Yeah, because having a child always guarantees someone will be there to take care of you when you are old and annoying. Give me a break. Besides, I intend on offing myself at 50 years old anyway, although the idea of doing it at a younger age appeals to me more and more.
On another note, Antenna TV has rolled the Three Stooges back to 1:00AM. I am so full of joy!
Friday, September 7, 2012
Enough With The Weather!
Tomorrow's forecast:
My stomach is already in knots. The knots have knots. There is talk of squall lines and supercells:
Embedded supercells? Is that like supercells in supercells? Yo dawg I heard you like supercells? Oh god I want to throw up, even though it kind of sounds like Northern Jersey and New York are more at risk for the supercells and possible tornadoes. And I seriously feel like punching all the people on Accuweather's FB page that are actually excited over this! Are you fucking stupid?
ETA 9/8 1:51AM: I am going to be up all night worrying about this storm system. As of right now, 4 fatalities have been reported in the Oklahoma.
ETA 9/8 1:08PM: Ugh I have never wanted a day to get over as much as today. Except back when Irene hit. A severe thunderstorm watch was issued for my area until 10:00PM. Nine freaking hours from now! And a tornado supposedly touched down up in New York. Sure it's not near here, but still. SPC has a low probability for tornados with this watch and a very low probability for an EF-2 or greater. As of last night, they had my area under a 5% chance of a tornado. Now they moved it down to 2%. And yet the Weather Channel TOR:CON was at a 3 yesterday for NJ. Now it's at a 5. I almost fainted when I saw that.
On another note, I keep seeing commercials on TWC for this upcoming show called Iceberg Hunters. These people actually are out with guns and nets shooting and catching pieces of icebergs. Who knew such a thing existed? I'd be lmao off I didn't feel like I am going to puke.
ETA 9/9 12:27AM: Well, my area was lucky. Extremely lucky. We just had rain.
I want to cry because I am so relieved. I was an utter wreck all day.
My stomach is already in knots. The knots have knots. There is talk of squall lines and supercells:
OF PARTICULAR CONCERN IS THE EXPECTED MID LEVEL JET THAT SHOULD INTENSIFY AS IT EJECTS ACROSS WRN PA TO SPEEDS IN EXCESS OF 70KT OVER UPSTATE NY BY 09/00Z. WITH DEEPENING SFC LOW OVER SERN ONTARIO FORECAST SHEAR PROFILES BECOME QUITE FAVORABLE FOR SUSTAINING ORGANIZED UPDRAFTS. WHILE A DAMAGING SQUALL LINE IS EXPECTED ALONG THE ADVANCING COLD FRONT...ENVIRONMENTAL SHEAR WILL BECOME QUITE FAVORABLE FOR PRE-FRONTAL SUPERCELLS AND EMBEDDED SUPERCELLS WITHIN THE MAIN SQUALL LINE. FORECAST SOUNDINGS FROM NRN NJ NWD THROUGH THE HUDSON VALLEY SUGGEST TORNADOES ARE POSSIBLE IF DISCRETE SUPERCELLS CAN EVOLVE AHEAD OF THE MAIN LINE AND WITH CIRCULATIONS WITHIN THE LINE. LATEST MODEL GUIDANCE SUGGESTS THE BACK EDGE OF THE PRIMARY SQUALL LINE WILL ADVANCE INTO THE HUDSON VALLEY BY LATE AFTERNOON TRAILING SWWD INTO CNTRL VA BY 09/00Z WITH SUBSEQUENT MOVEMENT ACROSS MUCH OF NEW ENGLAND BY 06Z.Ugh what is with this weather? Wasn't Tuesday enough? And I really wish I could understand what I am reading here. Some I understand, but the abbreviations and some of the terminology are harder to comprehend. Guess it's time for me to teach myself meterology.
Embedded supercells? Is that like supercells in supercells? Yo dawg I heard you like supercells? Oh god I want to throw up, even though it kind of sounds like Northern Jersey and New York are more at risk for the supercells and possible tornadoes. And I seriously feel like punching all the people on Accuweather's FB page that are actually excited over this! Are you fucking stupid?
ETA 9/8 1:51AM: I am going to be up all night worrying about this storm system. As of right now, 4 fatalities have been reported in the Oklahoma.
ETA 9/8 1:08PM: Ugh I have never wanted a day to get over as much as today. Except back when Irene hit. A severe thunderstorm watch was issued for my area until 10:00PM. Nine freaking hours from now! And a tornado supposedly touched down up in New York. Sure it's not near here, but still. SPC has a low probability for tornados with this watch and a very low probability for an EF-2 or greater. As of last night, they had my area under a 5% chance of a tornado. Now they moved it down to 2%. And yet the Weather Channel TOR:CON was at a 3 yesterday for NJ. Now it's at a 5. I almost fainted when I saw that.
On another note, I keep seeing commercials on TWC for this upcoming show called Iceberg Hunters. These people actually are out with guns and nets shooting and catching pieces of icebergs. Who knew such a thing existed? I'd be lmao off I didn't feel like I am going to puke.
ETA 9/9 12:27AM: Well, my area was lucky. Extremely lucky. We just had rain.
I want to cry because I am so relieved. I was an utter wreck all day.
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Random MTV Music Awards Thoughts
Have the music awards on right now. One Direction is going to be performing. I can't wait to hear how autotuned they are. They're about the only reason I am watching it. God, they are so freaking adorable. Especially Harry and Liam. I want to punch myself in the face for thinking this.
Okay. Can't hear over all of the incessant obnoxious screaming. STFU, you dumb tweens! Are they going to do anything besides just stand there and/or walk around? Sure, MGMT didn't really do much at their show, but uh, they play instruments. The boy bands in my day (god I sound like such an old person) used to dance like all holy hell. And while I do agree that there is no written law that boy bands have to dance, but well, um, when looks and half-decent singing are all you have....you have to do something.
The rest of the show, I am watching on mute with my iTunes library playing loudly. I'm just going to pretend everyone is lip-synching to my music. New hits or not, MGMT should be there. Why? Have you seen some of the people that are there? Why are they there? And just because MGMT is awesome. And because they are real musicians. And don't base any judgements on two songs. Seriously- look up how much work they put into their music. It's unbelievable. They write and compose all of their music. I think Andrew pretty much writes all of the lyrics.
And then their instrument talent. WHOA:
From OS:
I watched their performance of "Electric Feel" from the 2009 V Fest again last night and I have to say Andrew has definitely improved since then in singing that song. I'm not going to say he was bad, but he definitely sang it better at Musikfest. Their performance of "Brian Eno" was significantly better than when I watched the 2010 Lollapalooza performance of it as well. But either way, I'd rather hear not-so-good live music than lip-synching.
MY KINGS! YOU SHOULD BE THERE!
They're so funny. Andrew looks like an anime character. Ben looks like he is posing for a school picture. And how in the hell tall is Matt anyway? They're all at least close to 5'10, based on how they compare to Andrew, and if that is how tall he really is. And Matt is like a good half foot at least taller. I always wonder if he is really shy or something, because he always seems to be hiding in the back on stage. DON'T HIDE MATT! WE LOVE YOU TOO!
Now....if I had Photoshop, I would put crowns on each of their heads. Andrew would have the biggest, of course. And because I am feeling really randy, that just sounded incredibly dirty.
9:15PM: OMFG HOW IS THIS MUSIC? Lil Wayne, please stop!
9:37PM: I am screaming along with "Metanoia" and I still sound better than most of these people performing. HELP ME! DRUMMER! TICKET! YEAH!
10:03PM: Hang it up, Rihanna, you insufferable cunt. God she makes me sick. She is about the only person on this earth who has less self-respect than me.
1:38AM: I bitched about Lil Wayne on Facebook and I just discovered I do in fact have friends who are fans of him. Nobody has said anything yet, but I swear if anyone makes one negative comment towards MGMT, I will administer an ass-whooping. You do not take the name of them in vain! Then again, I have plenty of friends on FB who hate Lil Wayne and would probably back me up.
Okay. Can't hear over all of the incessant obnoxious screaming. STFU, you dumb tweens! Are they going to do anything besides just stand there and/or walk around? Sure, MGMT didn't really do much at their show, but uh, they play instruments. The boy bands in my day (god I sound like such an old person) used to dance like all holy hell. And while I do agree that there is no written law that boy bands have to dance, but well, um, when looks and half-decent singing are all you have....you have to do something.
The rest of the show, I am watching on mute with my iTunes library playing loudly. I'm just going to pretend everyone is lip-synching to my music. New hits or not, MGMT should be there. Why? Have you seen some of the people that are there? Why are they there? And just because MGMT is awesome. And because they are real musicians. And don't base any judgements on two songs. Seriously- look up how much work they put into their music. It's unbelievable. They write and compose all of their music. I think Andrew pretty much writes all of the lyrics.
And then their instrument talent. WHOA:
From OS:
- Andrew Vanwyngarden – lead vocals, lead and rhythm guitars, keyboards, drums, percussion
- Ben Goldwasser – vocals, keyboards rhythm guitars, percussion, synths and samples
- Andrew VanWyngarden: vocals, guitars, drums (3, 4-7, 9), bass (1-4, 6, 9), synths (2, 3, 6, 8), casio guitar (7), piano (2), fake flute (4), harmonica (6), electric sitar (3, 6), percussion
- Ben Goldwasser: synths and samples (1, 3-9), organ (3-5, 7, 8), piano (4, 8), omnichord (1, 2, 5), numerology (6), additional vocals (2, 4, 7), percussion
- James Richardson: guitars (1, 2, 5-8), synths (2), casio guitar (7), synth drums (8), glockenspiel (2), saxophone (5), pan pipes (6), additional vocals (7), percussion, electric sitar (3)
- Matt Asti: guitars (1, 4, 6), bass (4-7), piano (5), additional vocals (7), field recordings and treatments, percussion
- Will Berman: drums (1, 2, 4), guitars (4, 6), bass (4), additional vocals, percussion, synths
I watched their performance of "Electric Feel" from the 2009 V Fest again last night and I have to say Andrew has definitely improved since then in singing that song. I'm not going to say he was bad, but he definitely sang it better at Musikfest. Their performance of "Brian Eno" was significantly better than when I watched the 2010 Lollapalooza performance of it as well. But either way, I'd rather hear not-so-good live music than lip-synching.
MY KINGS! YOU SHOULD BE THERE!
They're so funny. Andrew looks like an anime character. Ben looks like he is posing for a school picture. And how in the hell tall is Matt anyway? They're all at least close to 5'10, based on how they compare to Andrew, and if that is how tall he really is. And Matt is like a good half foot at least taller. I always wonder if he is really shy or something, because he always seems to be hiding in the back on stage. DON'T HIDE MATT! WE LOVE YOU TOO!
Now....if I had Photoshop, I would put crowns on each of their heads. Andrew would have the biggest, of course. And because I am feeling really randy, that just sounded incredibly dirty.
9:15PM: OMFG HOW IS THIS MUSIC? Lil Wayne, please stop!
9:37PM: I am screaming along with "Metanoia" and I still sound better than most of these people performing. HELP ME! DRUMMER! TICKET! YEAH!
10:03PM: Hang it up, Rihanna, you insufferable cunt. God she makes me sick. She is about the only person on this earth who has less self-respect than me.
1:38AM: I bitched about Lil Wayne on Facebook and I just discovered I do in fact have friends who are fans of him. Nobody has said anything yet, but I swear if anyone makes one negative comment towards MGMT, I will administer an ass-whooping. You do not take the name of them in vain! Then again, I have plenty of friends on FB who hate Lil Wayne and would probably back me up.
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Random Thoughts
I just visited D-Listed and there was an article about that Honey Boo Boo show and how they supposedly make $40,000 a season. I really want someone to tell me why people watch shit like this. And every other POS reality show on TV. I am tired of hearing the excuse that oh it's like a car wreck you can't turn away. BULL. SHIT. Why on God's good earth do you want to help these people make tons of money for being fucking lowlife scum?
That family is the worst. That mother is beyond disgusting and vile. I can't even look at pictures of her without wanting to projectile vomit. The only smart thing the dumb cow ever said was when she made fun of fat people in bikinis and with their fat hanging everywhere. It's the truth. No one wants to see your fat hanging everywhere. If Americans want to know why the rest of the world laughs at, just look at people like this. And politics, especially the Republican party.
I have a deep unhealthy hatred for child beauty pageants. They make me sick. Anyone who subjects their child to them should be revoked of their parenting privileges. They are abuse, plain and simple. When I was down Myrtle Beach, we were over at Barefoot Landing and I stopped in one of the bathrooms and there were these two young women with a little girl and they had the little girl practicing her beauty pageant speech. It made me want to throw up.
Sorry I am cranky. I went to Cracker Barrel for dinner and my sister and I split the apple dumpling dessert. Out of curiosity I came home and googled nutrition facts for CB and found the dessert is 3229 calories. I almost hit the roof. I want to cry so bad. I wouldn't care so much if I hadn't been bad Saturday and Monday as well. Ugh. My meal had to have been at least 2500 calories. That is sick. I've had the dessert before and never gained weight, and I am sure anytime I go to the Cheesecake Factory my meal is about that if not more, but I still feel so damn guilty.
I couldn't stand having the Addison's fear, but having my weight on the front burner again is not any more of a picnic. It's frustrating worrying constantly about gaining weight. And worrying that the constant worrying of gaining weight is going to lead to an eating disorder. I recall when reading on eating disorders that a lot of people with EDs feel like their eating and weight are the only things they can control in their life. And I do feel like that, because the rest of my life I feel like I have completely lost control of. And that is what worries me.
That family is the worst. That mother is beyond disgusting and vile. I can't even look at pictures of her without wanting to projectile vomit. The only smart thing the dumb cow ever said was when she made fun of fat people in bikinis and with their fat hanging everywhere. It's the truth. No one wants to see your fat hanging everywhere. If Americans want to know why the rest of the world laughs at, just look at people like this. And politics, especially the Republican party.
I have a deep unhealthy hatred for child beauty pageants. They make me sick. Anyone who subjects their child to them should be revoked of their parenting privileges. They are abuse, plain and simple. When I was down Myrtle Beach, we were over at Barefoot Landing and I stopped in one of the bathrooms and there were these two young women with a little girl and they had the little girl practicing her beauty pageant speech. It made me want to throw up.
Sorry I am cranky. I went to Cracker Barrel for dinner and my sister and I split the apple dumpling dessert. Out of curiosity I came home and googled nutrition facts for CB and found the dessert is 3229 calories. I almost hit the roof. I want to cry so bad. I wouldn't care so much if I hadn't been bad Saturday and Monday as well. Ugh. My meal had to have been at least 2500 calories. That is sick. I've had the dessert before and never gained weight, and I am sure anytime I go to the Cheesecake Factory my meal is about that if not more, but I still feel so damn guilty.
I couldn't stand having the Addison's fear, but having my weight on the front burner again is not any more of a picnic. It's frustrating worrying constantly about gaining weight. And worrying that the constant worrying of gaining weight is going to lead to an eating disorder. I recall when reading on eating disorders that a lot of people with EDs feel like their eating and weight are the only things they can control in their life. And I do feel like that, because the rest of my life I feel like I have completely lost control of. And that is what worries me.
Pictures Of The Day
I hate the term BFF....but I love every single one of these pictures:
25 Animals Who Are Totally BFFs
25 Animals Who Are Totally BFFs
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Random Tornado Thoughts
I knew summer would not be complete without at least one tornado warning. The past couple weeks, I have been thinking gee, we haven't had any yet this summer, surely one is bound to come eventually. And finally the weather did not disappoint me. Today we had one. Actually there were two in my county today, but I think the earlier one affected further east of my county. The second one was right over my township. And apparently, funnel clouds were spotted, thankfully to the west of my town. Even so, as soon as I saw that a tornado warning was issued, I immediately started shaking and hyperventilating. Didn't help that when the warning started listing where the tornado would be near, it listed my town as one of them.
I'm not one to condemn weather predictions, because I understand meteorology is not an easy thing to predict, but so much for relying on the Weather Channel and SPC storm predictions. Nowhere in the Northeast was listed under the TOR:CON for today. No severe thunderstorm threat. SPC had no storm probabilities for any of the areas.
On another note, I [shamefully] requested a copy of One Direction's CD from my local libray. What? I think a couple of their songs are catchy and I want to hear the rest of them. But I'm sorry, I am not buying their CD. I haven't even bought MGMT's CDs, although that is more due to the fact that NO GODDAMN STORES SELL THEIR CDS ANYMORE (I still might buy them if I ever find them. I could order them online, of course. But I don't feel like it). My library only has 3 copies of it and I am 8th in line for it. Ugh it's going to be so embarrassing when I have to go pick it up, because I can't do self-checkout with CDs, so a librarian or volunteer will have to check it out for me. They'll be looking at me like ew, why is someone so old checking out their CD? Then again, I supposedly look a hell of a lot younger than my age, according to every single person I meet, but I don't see it. I think I look haggard for 28.
I just have to remember to return it on time; otherwise, this post will come to life. Their fans are fucking psychotic. I did a teeny bit of research on the whole Larry shipping thing and....mother of God. Okay, yes they would be a very sweet and adorable couple. They're so sweet and adorable together, my pancreas temporarily stops producing insulin and gives me temporary diabetes every time I see pictures of them together. And hey, I admit to my fair share of fantasizing about two people who would look good together. But I just do it for fun. I would never sit and write stories or anything. It's all in my head with the rest of my fucked up thoughts.What? You don't think I look at Ben and Andrew and think dirty thoughts? But wow. Those fans.....I couldn't imagine being that serious and dedicated to something.
ETA 1:31AM: Possible tornado strikes in Southern NJ
Okay. No. That is way, WAY too close for comfort.
And that shopping center that the video was taken from? I have been there many times.
ETA 12:57PM: OH GOD IT WAS A TORNADO
I mentioned to my mom last night about how a possible tornado had hit, and she starts saying about how if one was to hit our area, they would tell us to get out. I said no, that is why they give you a warning, to prepare if one was to hit. And she says something like if one hits and that is how she is meant to die, so be it. I mentally facepalmed myself. That is the whole point of warnings! So you don't die, or at least decrease your risk of dying!
I'm not one to condemn weather predictions, because I understand meteorology is not an easy thing to predict, but so much for relying on the Weather Channel and SPC storm predictions. Nowhere in the Northeast was listed under the TOR:CON for today. No severe thunderstorm threat. SPC had no storm probabilities for any of the areas.
On another note, I [shamefully] requested a copy of One Direction's CD from my local libray. What? I think a couple of their songs are catchy and I want to hear the rest of them. But I'm sorry, I am not buying their CD. I haven't even bought MGMT's CDs, although that is more due to the fact that NO GODDAMN STORES SELL THEIR CDS ANYMORE (I still might buy them if I ever find them. I could order them online, of course. But I don't feel like it). My library only has 3 copies of it and I am 8th in line for it. Ugh it's going to be so embarrassing when I have to go pick it up, because I can't do self-checkout with CDs, so a librarian or volunteer will have to check it out for me. They'll be looking at me like ew, why is someone so old checking out their CD? Then again, I supposedly look a hell of a lot younger than my age, according to every single person I meet, but I don't see it. I think I look haggard for 28.
I just have to remember to return it on time; otherwise, this post will come to life. Their fans are fucking psychotic. I did a teeny bit of research on the whole Larry shipping thing and....mother of God. Okay, yes they would be a very sweet and adorable couple. They're so sweet and adorable together, my pancreas temporarily stops producing insulin and gives me temporary diabetes every time I see pictures of them together. And hey, I admit to my fair share of fantasizing about two people who would look good together. But I just do it for fun. I would never sit and write stories or anything. It's all in my head with the rest of my fucked up thoughts.What? You don't think I look at Ben and Andrew and think dirty thoughts? But wow. Those fans.....I couldn't imagine being that serious and dedicated to something.
ETA 1:31AM: Possible tornado strikes in Southern NJ
Okay. No. That is way, WAY too close for comfort.
And that shopping center that the video was taken from? I have been there many times.
ETA 12:57PM: OH GOD IT WAS A TORNADO
I mentioned to my mom last night about how a possible tornado had hit, and she starts saying about how if one was to hit our area, they would tell us to get out. I said no, that is why they give you a warning, to prepare if one was to hit. And she says something like if one hits and that is how she is meant to die, so be it. I mentally facepalmed myself. That is the whole point of warnings! So you don't die, or at least decrease your risk of dying!
Random Thoughts
So summer is essentially over now. It really flew by. And I didn't do anything that exciting, with the exception of going to Myrtle Beach in June (which would have been more fun if some people weren't such pain in the asses about everything) and going to Musikfest. God I want to to relive that night again so bad. Minus the heat and rain.
I was really nervous about summer coming since I started having issues with blood pressure running on the low side. I was really worried I would pass out or have other problems. Luckily, I never did. I did have times where I felt sick from the heat, but never enough to pass out. I don't even know how my blood pressure has been running. I haven't taken it in such a long time. I'm glad that was one compulsion I was finally able to break. It took a lot of hard work, but eventually it finally ceased. I just wish I could eventually finally break free from the fear of having Addison's. I probably have more than enough evidence that I do not have it, but like I have repeatedly said, letting go makes me feel like I am jinxing myself.
I noticed a lot of the people I used to work with who still have their jobs have been bitching up a storm on Facebook about wanting to leave, so one day I sent a message to my WA, or what I will now call FWA. Because obviously she can't be bothered with me. But whatever. Fuck her white trash ass. Apparently they bitched about something to my old boss and she got mad at them and is now being really ignorant to them. Now I know she is a fucking menace. She is clearly someone who gets stressed out easily and should not be anywhere near a management position. Exactly why I have never been in one. But hearing this from my FWA, she of the I only talk for 10 minutes but was really over an hour, I am taken this with a grain of salt. Frankly, everyone I worked with there is always going to greatly exaggerate their problems. Just her little bitching FB post about getting in trouble for her clothes. Her clothes were always inappropriate for work
And once again, they should all be fucking grateful they still have jobs. And you know what? If any of them left or was fired and my boss, if she really liked me as much as she claimed she did, called and offered me a position and it fit what I was looking for, I wouldn't hesitate to take it. Please. Why should I care if I take a job from any of those people? Why should I care if it hurts them? Would they think twice about doing the same to me? Nope.
I'm seriously getting tired of constantly worrying about other people's feelings. I don't want to be downright cruel, but it's almost ridiculous how much I have let slip through my fingers from being too worried about hurting other people. Why was I so stupid?
And speaking of being cruel, did anyone hear that story about the teenager who stuck his head out the top of a bus and got killed? A prime example of what is wrong with parenting today. Every generation coming up is full of defiant little bastards who think no rules apply to them. They were told not to open it and I can just imagine the stupid little bastard acting cocky and defiant. And where did it get him? Six feet under ground. What a fucking moron.
I was really nervous about summer coming since I started having issues with blood pressure running on the low side. I was really worried I would pass out or have other problems. Luckily, I never did. I did have times where I felt sick from the heat, but never enough to pass out. I don't even know how my blood pressure has been running. I haven't taken it in such a long time. I'm glad that was one compulsion I was finally able to break. It took a lot of hard work, but eventually it finally ceased. I just wish I could eventually finally break free from the fear of having Addison's. I probably have more than enough evidence that I do not have it, but like I have repeatedly said, letting go makes me feel like I am jinxing myself.
I noticed a lot of the people I used to work with who still have their jobs have been bitching up a storm on Facebook about wanting to leave, so one day I sent a message to my WA, or what I will now call FWA. Because obviously she can't be bothered with me. But whatever. Fuck her white trash ass. Apparently they bitched about something to my old boss and she got mad at them and is now being really ignorant to them. Now I know she is a fucking menace. She is clearly someone who gets stressed out easily and should not be anywhere near a management position. Exactly why I have never been in one. But hearing this from my FWA, she of the I only talk for 10 minutes but was really over an hour, I am taken this with a grain of salt. Frankly, everyone I worked with there is always going to greatly exaggerate their problems. Just her little bitching FB post about getting in trouble for her clothes. Her clothes were always inappropriate for work
And once again, they should all be fucking grateful they still have jobs. And you know what? If any of them left or was fired and my boss, if she really liked me as much as she claimed she did, called and offered me a position and it fit what I was looking for, I wouldn't hesitate to take it. Please. Why should I care if I take a job from any of those people? Why should I care if it hurts them? Would they think twice about doing the same to me? Nope.
I'm seriously getting tired of constantly worrying about other people's feelings. I don't want to be downright cruel, but it's almost ridiculous how much I have let slip through my fingers from being too worried about hurting other people. Why was I so stupid?
And speaking of being cruel, did anyone hear that story about the teenager who stuck his head out the top of a bus and got killed? A prime example of what is wrong with parenting today. Every generation coming up is full of defiant little bastards who think no rules apply to them. They were told not to open it and I can just imagine the stupid little bastard acting cocky and defiant. And where did it get him? Six feet under ground. What a fucking moron.
Sunday, September 2, 2012
Random Thoughts
Oh boy the next few months should be peachy. My sister is seriously one of the bitchiest pregnant women I have ever met. More reason I am glad I am not ever having a baby. She acts like I do when I have PMS. I'd probably be like fucking Godzilla.
She wanted to go to Seaside, so of course Mommy and Daddy cater to her(man, I thought the catering to her every whim was bad when she wasn't pregnant) and we end up going today. It was going to be hot, and since I don't own shorts because I hate my legs and since I don't particularly care what I look like since I was going to Seaside, I wanted to go down in my bathing suit and cover up. So I am all finished getting done and then I decide to change my cover up, and I ask which one looked better and she snaps at me that why can't I just wear regular clothes when they are all wearing them. I just looked at her, walked out the room, and changed my clothes. What was the big fucking deal what I wore? It's Seaside, for god's sake.
Pregnant or not, she is really getting on my last nerve. And when she pisses me off, I have to avoid talking to her, because I am very close to really letting her have it.
And I am tired of hearing her bitch about mother-in-law. Every single time she comes over. Just like her husband making digs about our family. They dated each other for 5 fucking years before they got married! They both knew what they were getting into!
I made some complaint earlier and my father says something like oh not to defend her but she is going through a lot. I wanted to turn to him and say are you kidding me? I am not brushing off her bitchiness to me because she chose to get pregnant. I don't get a free pass when I have PMS or am going through a bad time. No, I get screamed at and am given the silent treatment.
That's the thing that makes me laugh. My mother and I fight, and she doesn't talk to me. My sister and my mother fight, and a few minutes later, it's like nothing happened. My sister was a complete bitch to my mother when she was moving, and my mother still busted her ass helping. I get into a little argument with her the night before Musikfest and she tells me keep it up and the tickets will go to waste. Why didn't she say something like keep it up and I won't help you move to my sister when she was being a complete cow during moving?
But anyway, moving slightly off the subject, those baby stores....oy vey! Any time I have to go to Babies R' Us for someone's shower, I dread it. And because no one in my family (either side) knows how to keep their damn legs closed, I end up there a lot more than I would like to. I seriously can't stand it. Partly because I hate the clientele, and mostly because I don't feel anything when I look at the stuff. I might look at some things and think awww. But most stuff, no. I just look at some of the stuff and wonder sarcastically gee, how did we ever survive being raised back in the day? There is seriously some ridiculous baby products out there. I also saw the ugliest, and very expensive, strollers I have ever seen in my life in that Buy Buy Baby store. They didn't even look comfortable! They looked like medieval torture chairs! And some of the bibs I see at Babies R' Us.....are you for real? Will clothes makers knock it off with the attitude clothing already? I am so sick of all of the stupid attitude shirts that kids wear. You know, the ones that say shit like "This is what awesome looks like" or something bragging about lazy the kid is.
This is cute, though. I always said I would buy one of those onesies that say "if you think I am cute, you should see my aunt" but now I have too much of a complex to ever buy one. And hell, there is even a bedding set I would totally buy if I was having a brat. And that kid would get the set regardless of its gender. Who cares if the store considers it a boy's bedroom set? I am not catering to that feminine or masculine pink or blue bullshit. Why couldn't a little girl like monsters?
She wanted to go to Seaside, so of course Mommy and Daddy cater to her(man, I thought the catering to her every whim was bad when she wasn't pregnant) and we end up going today. It was going to be hot, and since I don't own shorts because I hate my legs and since I don't particularly care what I look like since I was going to Seaside, I wanted to go down in my bathing suit and cover up. So I am all finished getting done and then I decide to change my cover up, and I ask which one looked better and she snaps at me that why can't I just wear regular clothes when they are all wearing them. I just looked at her, walked out the room, and changed my clothes. What was the big fucking deal what I wore? It's Seaside, for god's sake.
Pregnant or not, she is really getting on my last nerve. And when she pisses me off, I have to avoid talking to her, because I am very close to really letting her have it.
And I am tired of hearing her bitch about mother-in-law. Every single time she comes over. Just like her husband making digs about our family. They dated each other for 5 fucking years before they got married! They both knew what they were getting into!
I made some complaint earlier and my father says something like oh not to defend her but she is going through a lot. I wanted to turn to him and say are you kidding me? I am not brushing off her bitchiness to me because she chose to get pregnant. I don't get a free pass when I have PMS or am going through a bad time. No, I get screamed at and am given the silent treatment.
That's the thing that makes me laugh. My mother and I fight, and she doesn't talk to me. My sister and my mother fight, and a few minutes later, it's like nothing happened. My sister was a complete bitch to my mother when she was moving, and my mother still busted her ass helping. I get into a little argument with her the night before Musikfest and she tells me keep it up and the tickets will go to waste. Why didn't she say something like keep it up and I won't help you move to my sister when she was being a complete cow during moving?
But anyway, moving slightly off the subject, those baby stores....oy vey! Any time I have to go to Babies R' Us for someone's shower, I dread it. And because no one in my family (either side) knows how to keep their damn legs closed, I end up there a lot more than I would like to. I seriously can't stand it. Partly because I hate the clientele, and mostly because I don't feel anything when I look at the stuff. I might look at some things and think awww. But most stuff, no. I just look at some of the stuff and wonder sarcastically gee, how did we ever survive being raised back in the day? There is seriously some ridiculous baby products out there. I also saw the ugliest, and very expensive, strollers I have ever seen in my life in that Buy Buy Baby store. They didn't even look comfortable! They looked like medieval torture chairs! And some of the bibs I see at Babies R' Us.....are you for real? Will clothes makers knock it off with the attitude clothing already? I am so sick of all of the stupid attitude shirts that kids wear. You know, the ones that say shit like "This is what awesome looks like" or something bragging about lazy the kid is.
This is cute, though. I always said I would buy one of those onesies that say "if you think I am cute, you should see my aunt" but now I have too much of a complex to ever buy one. And hell, there is even a bedding set I would totally buy if I was having a brat. And that kid would get the set regardless of its gender. Who cares if the store considers it a boy's bedroom set? I am not catering to that feminine or masculine pink or blue bullshit. Why couldn't a little girl like monsters?
Saturday, September 1, 2012
The Awesome Of The Day
I just checked the SPC webpage and it is the first time since Tuesday there are no tornado watches. Huzzah! The last two expired at 10:00PM CDT.
Looking at some of the pictures of the damage....just whoa. Some places are pratically underwater.
You know what else fascinates me during these storms? The reporters that give the news in the midst of them. I don't know how they do it. I would have to tie myself to a light pole or something. Are these people crazy or just friggin awesome? Especially that Cantore guy. He's a BAMF.
I found a link in the Weather Channel webpage of every song they have played on the Local Forecast and I am hooting at some of the songs. I have heard local forecasts with the Red Hot Chili Peppers, Maroon 5, Snow Patrol, Pink Floyd, Linkin Park, and Death Cab For Cutie. And several months later, I am getting an answer to my question in this post, that yes, they did play Sublime. Damn, how come I have yet to hear a Local Forecast with "Houdini" by Foster the People? I love that song! I swear, if they ever played MGMT, I would be so mad.
Okay. No they have not. No reason to freak. But they should. I suggest "Siberian Breaks". And for some reason "Indie Rokkers". Although the latter they would have to make an instrumental version of it, because I do not think many people would be happy with the lyrics of it.
And speaking of changed music, I was at Buy Buy Baby the other day....first off, before I go any further, can I just say how much I dislike baby stores? I feel like I am on a completely different planet. I really and truly can believe I have no maternal instinct every time I leave these stores. It's kind of sad. But anyway, I found these CDs of lullaby versions of different rock bands. It would have been awesome if there had been one of MGMT. I totally would have bought it.
Looking at some of the pictures of the damage....just whoa. Some places are pratically underwater.
You know what else fascinates me during these storms? The reporters that give the news in the midst of them. I don't know how they do it. I would have to tie myself to a light pole or something. Are these people crazy or just friggin awesome? Especially that Cantore guy. He's a BAMF.
I found a link in the Weather Channel webpage of every song they have played on the Local Forecast and I am hooting at some of the songs. I have heard local forecasts with the Red Hot Chili Peppers, Maroon 5, Snow Patrol, Pink Floyd, Linkin Park, and Death Cab For Cutie. And several months later, I am getting an answer to my question in this post, that yes, they did play Sublime. Damn, how come I have yet to hear a Local Forecast with "Houdini" by Foster the People? I love that song! I swear, if they ever played MGMT, I would be so mad.
Okay. No they have not. No reason to freak. But they should. I suggest "Siberian Breaks". And for some reason "Indie Rokkers". Although the latter they would have to make an instrumental version of it, because I do not think many people would be happy with the lyrics of it.
And speaking of changed music, I was at Buy Buy Baby the other day....first off, before I go any further, can I just say how much I dislike baby stores? I feel like I am on a completely different planet. I really and truly can believe I have no maternal instinct every time I leave these stores. It's kind of sad. But anyway, I found these CDs of lullaby versions of different rock bands. It would have been awesome if there had been one of MGMT. I totally would have bought it.
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