Random Thoughts

I was going through my daily gossip site pages earlier and I came across an article about John Stamos taking a young woman to Disneyland. The girl had contracted meningococcemia and lost all of her limbs. I haven't gotten anxious over meningococcemia in a while, but reading about it has reeled it back into my life. I get so fearful that one day I am going to contract something like that, lose consciousness, and someone is going to go against my wishes of not amputating anything. An advance directive may ease some of the anxiety, but I still wouldn't feel completely at ease. I have made it clear to my family that if something like that happened to me to NOT, under absolutely any circumstances, allow any amputations. Whether they would actually follow through on my wishes, I don't know. And I don't like that uncertainty.

And speaking of uncertainty, I am annoyed with how lousy I have been feeling. And this fear coming back into the picture is not helping matters. I wake up every day feeling exhausted and like I am hungover. And I have been sleeping okay. It's just been taking me forever to fall asleep because my head just runs and runs and runs. And I have been having some weird dreams. Can't remember most of them, but I do remember having a dream one night I was hospitalized with Amanda Bynes. Whatever that was about. The stranger part is, it's not the first time I have dreamt of being hospitalized in a psych hospital with a celebrity, either.

And during the day, I just feel lousy overall. My head feels strange and I get random pains in different spots throughout the day. The pressure in my ears constantly fluctuates (especially in the left). I keep feeling like someone is blowing in my left ear. Every time I cry, I get so stuffed up I can't breathe. I imagines it has to do with my allergies/sinuses. But nothing in my area is high.

I just read some article over on ONTD about some ugly ass old bitch who says any woman who is happy to not have children is a liar. O rly? You know what? I am getting REALLY tired of these miserable ass bitches- probably mostly all women who hated that they took on the role of motherhood- saying that child-free people are selfish, miserable, etc. I just do not understand why it is such a big fucking deal to choose to not have kids.

JFC, if it's that big of a deal for someone to shit out a kid, then fine, I'll do it. And since I'd make a lousy mother, and assuming I do not have endometriosis, I am probably fertile as a cockroach. So not only will I reproduce, I won't stop at one. I will pop out a whole bunch. And I will go on welfare. But who gives a shit? I fulfilled my biological duty, right????

Ew, I just saw a picture of two cockroaches doing the nasty. And I am trying not to laugh.

The Bitch, Please! Of The Day

The Cops Finally Take Away Amanda Bynes' Death Machine, Lindsay Delusionhan Is Not Impressed

You know what? I take back what I said about Amanda. For now. I'll give her a bit more time to see what stupid shit she may do before I decide to reinstate what I said. As for now, I'd like to see Amanda take out this dumb bitch and her stupid mother in one shot.

On another note, I was reading a Facebook thread on STFU Parents' page and boy, the mommies have themselves in an uproar over another member who had a migraine one time and she asked a woman to quiet her kids. It's hard to control a crying child! You wait until you are a parent! Wah! Wah! Wah! I'm not the most rational person, but if I had a migraine and a child was screaming and Mommy ain't doing anything about it, I'd be flipping out too. The comments that are killing me the most are the ones that this young woman's migraines aren't other people's problems. Well, the fact that you can't control your child isn't my problem. If I showed even the slightest hint of a tantrum, my mom grabbed my arm and took me outside. I'm so tired of hearing parents whine about parenthood. You chose to be a parent! Deal with what comes along with it!

I was born 8 days early. I must have been in a rush to get into the world to get out faster.

Planet. Off. STAT.

Breaking News of the Day: Protests Escalate Across Mideast

All this turmoil and violence over a stupid video?

You know what? I am tired of this bullshit. There is absolutely no reasoning with these people. Either they need to be wiped off the face of the earth or just left alone with the hopes that eventually they'll kill each other off. I feel terrible saying that because like with all things, there are probably good people in the Middle East. But this is ridiculous. One stupid video made by one stupid asshole and they're killing people and want to attack America.

I like when the reasoning for gas prices going up is turmoil in the Middle East. Uh, when is there NOT turmoil in the Middle East? That's like saying gas prices are going up because the sun shone today. And OF COURSE this all happens in a presidential election year. I'm not normally one for conspiracy theories, but it makes you- well, me at least- wonder.

And what is up with that dumb bitch Amanda Bynes? No one has heard a peep from her in years, then one day she pops up in the news for something I can't care enough to remember, and now she is constantly in the news doing something stupid. Lindsay Blohan 2.0. The both of them need to just fuck off and die already. I have been trying to cut back on my death wishes for other people, but these two dumb cunts clearly don't care how their actions put OTHER PEOPLE'S LIVES at risk, so why should I, or anyone, give a fuck about them? But we all know what will happen. One of the boneheads will cause an accident and some innocent person will die instead.

On another note, ugh, I want to go to NYC to see that light show so bad tomorrow night. Instead, I'll be at some 50th wedding anniversary party with a whole bunch of people I really don't want to be around. And it's going to be like every other party, but worse now that my sister is pregnant. I shouldn't even waste my time going. But if I stay home, then I will sit and dwell over the fact that I am not in NYC watching 2 of my 5 favorite musicians put on probably what will be a fucking AWESOME show. Don't get me wrong, I'll still do it at the party, but I'll have some things to distract me- I'm sure I will be stuffing my face with lots of good food (hopefully; it is the Italian side of the family), and mostly about how much I don't want to be there.

Man, I am in such a horrible mood today.