Song Of The Day

"Do you know....do you know
You're all I know....you're all I know
When everything comes crashing down
You're all I know....you're all I know"

Song Of The Day

This song needs to be a lot longer than 2:51 minutes:

Song Of The Day

Song Of The Day

I heard this song yesterday for the first time and it occurred to me that I still hadn't gotten the new CD yet and by luck, Targe had it on sale this week so I picked it up today. Have to say I am really digging it so far, possibly even more than Night Visions.

Weird

Was just reading an article on a drone capturing images of Pripyat, Chernobyl and I had my music on and wasn't really paying attention to what was on and then I stopped and did so and realized I was listening to "Radioactive". How oddly appropriate.

Those pictures are haunting as hell.

ETA 1:34: You know what? Looking at those pictures and then reading up on Pripyat and the Chernobyl disaster at this time of the night was not a good idea.

Song Of The Day

After watching their AMA performance, I have finally decided I really fucking love this song:

Random Thoughts

I had the news on earlier and they were talking with people who are still trying to rebuild after Sandy and they interviewed this one girl who has a little boy about 14 months old (I think) and she was saying how she was working 3 jobs just to pay to fix things. And I thought about my FWA whining to me that one day about how her boyfriend's mother gets to sit home and all she wants to do is be home with her baby. At least she only has to work 1 job. A nice cushy job where she gets to come and go as she pleases and do whatever the fuck she pleases. She left her time sheet up one day when she went to lunch and 99% of the days she never meets 8 hours. Never on time. Never an hour lunch. Gets to spend an hour plus talking to her fat mama and a half hour plus pumping her titties, all on company time. But the dumb cow never gets away with anything, right?

Yesterday she skipped out at 12:00. I would love to know where in the hell she even has the time to take a half-day. I would love to know her reasoning behind that. Probably wasn't feeling good or something. Caught that bug she always claims to be going around. But apparently not bad enough to take a million pictures of her spawn and post them on Facebook yesterday afternoon.

And I don't know where in the hell our company gets temps from, but damn are they some incompetent lazy bitches with poor work ethics. Our latest one is never on time, took about a 45 minute lunch yesterday and then came back and stood around and ate. One day last week I almost rear-ended her because she was driving super slow and out of nowhere broke hard. When I pulled up next to her, one hand was holding a phone and the other was holding a cigarette. And this isn't some young chickadee, probably significantly middle-aged. And then she had the nerve to complain to me one day about how people are too reckless driving in the rain.

I have done 4 days of overtime already. I swore after the whole situation in August that I was never going to give that company more than I needed to, but I guess I am a sucker. I keep telling myself that I am doing it in support of my coworker being out with cancer....no, wait that isn't worded right. I don't know how to word what I am trying to say. Oh, and I like money!

It's not really new because I have noticed it before, but I have something to add to my list of ever growing womanly problems. Apparently in the second half of my cycle, things turn a scary purple color down below (sorry. I'm sorry) and almost white on the outer edges. And sometimes itches. I was horrified when I seen it again earlier. I am "due" for my period on Sunday; whether it will come is another story and yes, I already have myself super stressed out about it.

When I was driving home from work earlier, I was very agitated (stupid drivers everywhere) and I felt hot across my lumbar area, which got me more agitated. Then it made me think of That Thing and I felt like yanking my steering wheel and crashing into a tree.

Yesterday my favorite radio station posted a link to the new Imagine Dragons song (I haven't had a chance to listen to it yet) and as expected people bitched. I don't get it. If people hate them so much, then why did they even bother listening to the song? If the station posts a music clip for a group I don't like or care for, I don't listen to it. Simple as that. And then I seen someone on ONTD say they are the worst band to come out of this decade. Seriously? With all of the shit music out there, Imagine Dragons is the worst? Give me a break.

I have been in a horrible mood the past 2 days. I hope to God it's PMS.

Song Of The Day

"I'm only joking/I don't believe a thing I've said/What are you smoking?/I'm just a-fucking with your head/Only a crazy little thing I read"



I want to see KONGOS and Imagine Dragons collaborate at some point. There'd be so much drum pounding and loud screech-singing, it would be ridiculous.

Song Of The Day

I wish one of these days I could meet Imagine Dragons and tell them how much their music hits me right in the feels:

Damn

I just heard "Monster" by Imagine Dragons for the first time. All I can say is WOW at the lyrics.

Song Of The Day

Song Of The Day

Nobody else....can take me higher

Yay!

It's Will Berman's birfday today! I think he's 32 years old. Also, I realized I missed Dan Reynolds' birfday last week. I think it was either the 14th or the 15th. I think he turned 27 years old.

Happy birthday, flawless musicians!

Random Thoughts

Well, our 4th of July cookout (on the 5th) was an experience. My dad was a miserable bastard because my grandparents, aunt, and my aunt's friend came. Our grill caught on fire. That was horrifying. Every time a grill is used, one of my biggest fears is it catching on fire and exploding, so needless to say when flames started shooting out of it, I was freaking out (internally) because all I could see were the flames hitting the propane tank and....well, you can picture the rest. And everyone in my family basically just stood around and watched it and I wanted to scream JFC people will you get the hell away from it?! I was shaking so bad for quite a while after it finally was put out. I am still horrified from it because I can't get the image of it out of my head and the thought of the flames hitting the propane tank.

I can't believe the weekend is going to be over already. And it was a sucky ass weekend. I did not do one thing of interest at all. Friday I did shit, except scrub my tub and clean the inside of my car. I am almost wishing I would have cleaned my bedroom. Saturday was the cookout, which ended up being pretty boring. No chance to go down the shore, no anything. Now it will be back to hell.

I am so damn furious over this whole thing with August. I can't even describe just how pissed I am. For one, I don't understand what our most senior employee being out on vacation that week has to do with me. We don't even do the same job (well, sometime she does what I do, but it's very rare). When she is on her vacation 2 weeks prior, one of our medical assistants is going to be out that same week. Why is it okay for her to be out that week as well? And really now- is my being out really going to affect the workload that much? In case my manager forgot, I am slow as shit.

I have said a million times before and I will say it again- I will never understand my manager's logic of thinking. Most of my coworkers take lunch between noon and one. On Thursday, I get an email from my manager telling me my FWA is taking lunch at 1 and I need to cover for her until I go to lunch at 1:35 and to let her know when I am going to lunch so she can have someone cover me. On what planet does that make any sense? Why not just have someone who already took lunch sit up front and cover for the whole 45 (55) minutes the princess is gone? And we had 3 medical assistants in the office that day and once again, I had to sit up front when we had patients. I don't understand on the days we have patients why one of the girls who deal with patients on a regular basis can't sit up front. Why is my manager such a fucking moron?

Another thing I don't understand is how when my FWA had a 30 minute lunch, she came back in 35, 40 minutes. Her lunch is extended to 45 minutes because she is a special little princess who expects the whole world to stop and cater to her every beck and call because she decided to fucking reproduce and she is now coming back in 55 minutes or more. What the fuck is wrong with her? I have never wanted to hit someone upside the head as much as her. I would love to know how other breastfeeding moms work their breast pumping in the workplace. It seems like my FWA just came back from maternity leave and told my manager that she is breastfeeding at this time and this time and this time and my manager just catered to her. Like she expects the whole workplace to just stop and allow her to do whatever she wants when she wants. Another one of my coworkers, the one who plays on her phone all the time, I wasn't there when she had just had her son, but I am pretty sure she wasn't granted these special privileges when she was pumping.

And that's another thing that annoys me- how my FWA has to constantly bring up that she is pumping. Every time she is going to the bathroom to do so, she has to say "I am going to pump", like none of us know by now that that is what she is going to do. Every. Single. Damn. Time. Or one day she didn't get to finish doing something and she said "oh I would have gotten it done if I didn't have to stop and pump". I felt like turning to her and saying "gee, FWA, do you pump? Because we never would have known. Also, nobody gives a fuck if you pump". She was telling me one day about how she wasn't making a whole lot of milk when she first had the baby. I tuned out right after she said "I wasn't making enough milk". I think she rattled on for about 15 minutes about it after that. All I wanted to do was scream JFC I don't fucking care!

Earlier, 104.5 posted an article titled How Well Do You Know Imagine Dragons? on their Facebook page and....look, I know a lot of 104's fans aren't fans of them but I was pretty surprised at just how much people seem to hate them. I can understand disliking their music, but for the most part, who exactly do they hurt? I almost never, if ever, hear anything about them. They seem like really nice, down-to-earth guys. Same thing with MGMT. I very rarely read anything negative about them (I rarely read anything about them period) but when I do, it can be pretty hostile. And again, who do they hurt? And knowing what both front men are like (Dan having anxiety and depression, Andrew talking about having performance anxiety and other issues from album criticism), it makes me feel extra bad. It's not like they are out being obnoxious pricks like Kanye West or something or spreading messages of hate or anything horrible like that.

Happy Birfday, America!

Have a safe and fun 4th!

The WTF Slash Song Of The Day

Linkin Park's Mike Shinoda on CHVRCHES, Haim, & Vampire Weekend: it's "Disney commercial music"

At first I thought he was knocking MGMT and the shanks were about to come out, but then I realized he wasn't. I think. But either way, who in the hell is Linkin Park to say anything about music sounding the same? With the exception of a few songs, all of their songs sound exactly the same! Take a seat, Linkin Park. Many, many seats.

And all of those people dissing Imagine Dragons on page 3 need to sit as well. They're probably basing their opinion on one or two songs. Whether you like their music or not, you can't read articles about them or read their Twitter (especially Dan's) and tell me they aren't really nice guys (especially Dan). Then again, this is the same place where there are legitimate fans of worthless people like Kim Kardashian and Lindsay Lohan and people like Hilary Duff, reality stars, etc and everyone's idea of a smart hilarious comment is "white people". Ooo we hate white people! They're all so damn stupid and evil! Lemme complain about how much I hate white people on a celebrity blog and lemme choose one of my many icons of some white celebrity to go with my I hate white people comment!

Screw you, Mike:

FML

Well the good news is Friday was not a bad day!

I am having intense cramping right now. I have had it all day, as well as feeling irritated down below and bladder pressure, but over the past few hours it has worsened. And that same sharp pain is on the right lower back and radiating to the front. I hope this is not a sign of what my cramps are going to be like. I am fretting about it coming early but I am also starting to worry that it will not come. FUCK I AM SO DONE WITH THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!!!

ETA 10:33PM: Well, it looks like it may possibly be coming, except it's doing that weird ass thing that it has been doing lately where I spot sporadically for a day and then it comes on with a vengeance. But I am still not going to rest until it fully comes on. I just hope to God I don't have the cramps from hell after having some pretty intense cramping this entire week. Especially last night and before I went to bed. I felt like my insides were on fire.

And earlier I ran to DQ and as I was leaving the mall, my right foot was bothering me. I swear to God, if a fear of a stress fracture comes back, I am going to fucking blow my brains out. Between getting anxious about eating for fear of having tooth pain, fear of getting an infected tooth, fear of going through early menopause ON TOP of the hundreds of other things I worry about and now having both sides of my jaw cracking and popping, I don't need any goddamn new fears!

Also, both MGMT and Imagine Dragons performed at Glastonbury tonight.

Random Thoughts

When you want to punch every single one of your coworkers in the face, it's time for a vacation.

I don't understand this bullshit of me being the only person who has to sit up front when my FWA goes to lunch. It's really starting to piss me the hell off. When one of my other coworkers is in the office, there is no reason she can't sit up front as well. Especially days we have patients. She is a medical assistant, she knows what to do more than I do. I am not an MA! And I told my manager flat out when I was offered an MA position that I don't like people enough to want to deal with patients, in addition to not being able to do that kind of intense long distance traveling.

And then my FWA returned almost 15 minutes later from lunch today. I had to deal with one patient and a copy machine technician while she was gone, which was 2 people too many that I wanted to deal with. The patient was nice (and cute), but the copy machine guy was not very friendly. And when my FWA came strolling in mumbling some bullshit excuse of why she was late, I just got up and walked away from her. I was not in the mood to listen to her bullshit.

And I am so tired of my manager's bullshit and the shit she allows people to get away with. I have never met a manager that is such a poor excuse for a manager like her. Especially the shit she allows my FWA to get away. I don't care how "great" of a worker my manager thinks she is, she is still not abiding by corporate policy. And the fact that she has been spoken to multiple times about her constant tardiness and she still continues to do it....she is such an arrogant defiant bitch.

I like my job in itself, minus the being told to do one thing one day and then another the next, or one person tells me to do one thing and another tells me to do another thing. And minus the atrocious doctor writing (handwritten and transcribed!). And it feeds into my medical topic obsession. Not always things I particularly am looking to learn about, but it generally ends up being interesting. The job has certainly given me a taste to want to learn all things musculoskeletal.

But yeah, I don't mind my job too much. It's just the people I work with. I swear, if I could transfer to our sister company, I think I would seriously consider it. And I would love to know if everyone is as bad there as my manager and coworkers make them out to be.

These goddamn obsessions with my teeth and early menopause are getting on my last nerve. I get anxious and sick to my stomach every time I have to eat, for fear it is going to hurt. My head hurts from not chewing right. My breasts felt sore earlier so I immediately started to panic that my period is going to come early. IT. NEVER. STOPS.

That one MGMT Tartlr page I visit, the girl was creepily obsessed with Andrew's ex and even after finding out they broke up, she defended her and complained about people bad-mouthing her. That lasted maybe a couple weeks. I haven't seen one mention of her since then. Can't say I am really surprised.

My mom was in the car with me yesterday and I put the Imagine Dragons CD on again and learned that in addition to not only knowing "Radioactive", she really likes it. I still really love it as well. Listening to that loud ass drum banging in the background.....I've got it blasting so loud in my earphones right now I am waiting for blood to start shooting out of my ears.

HA!

Post by Imagine Dragons.

The first thing I thought of was this:



Dan's extreme height will never not be amusing to me. Also, I could totally picture MGMT going to an awards show in a hunk o junk like that.

Random Thoughts

In my annual performance review, I got a 4.75 out of 5 for attendance. I have been thinking about it and thinking about it and I am PISSED. I am NEVER late. I NEVER leave early. My lunch has NEVER ONCE gone over 30 minutes. I have called out ONCE. Why in the FUCK do I only get a 4.75?! And of course I am too much of a goddamn pussy to speak up and say anything.

I swear, one of these days I am going to get so sick and tired of being taken advantage of and not speaking up for myself that I am going to split into 2 personalities a la Me, Myself & Irene. And I hate the phrase, but there is no other way to describe it- it's going to be fucking EPIC.

In work on Friday, that luncheon was planned for noon. Before that, I had went up to ask my FWA something and she asked me what was I doing about taking lunch (I always take lunch around 1:30, she takes it after I get back, which reminds me of something else to complain about) and then says she doesn't know what she is going to do, because she can't not see her baby (she always drives to her mom's during lunch). I wanted to laugh at her. Millions of moms work and take lunch without ever seeing their babies until they get home! God, she is so fucking ridiculous. She said she'd probably just take her usual lunch, but then she ended up going in to the luncheon at noon and staying in there for a good 45 minutes.....and then still went home at her normal lunch time! It amazes me how much my manager lets her get away with.

And going back to the lunch thing, the day my FWA came back, I get an email from my manager telling me I need to sit upfront when my FWA goes to lunch. I wanted to write back and say excuse me am I the only one who works in the office? Like why do I have to be the only one who ever sits up front? Why can't it be alternated? It's such fucking bullshit. God, I need a backbone.

On another note, last weekend my mom and I ran to Target to get some things and while I was there, I thought maybe I will buy the Imagine Dragons CD since I liked it so much and there was one copy left so I grabbed it and figured eh I'll decide before I leave whether I want to actually buy. I ended up buying it and put it on in the car on the way home. "Radioactive" is the first song on the album and a few seconds into the lyrics starting I hear my mom singing along with it. I said "you actually know this song?!" and she said something like oh yeah I have heard it on TV before. I just laughed. I know I have played it before in the car with her but I didn't think she actually really knew it. Then again, it did get played a lot there for awhile.

I never quite got the blow up of the song, because it blew up long after I first started hearing it on the radio. My local alt rock station 104.5 was playing it long before other stations. I think I remember hearing it on 104.5 as far back as January 2013. It was one of those songs like "Kids"- I kept hearing it and liked it, but never did any research on the name or group (and if I recall, I thought it was that Alex Clare guy). I didn't actually download it until March 2013. And several months later, out of nowhere, it was playing EVERYWHERE.

God, I am going to be SO FAT after the past few days of eating!