God Do I Suck

Where is my voice of reason? I need her. Why does she always abandon me when I need her? Whatever. I guess I will have to try to reason with myself instead. Look, it's not the end of the world. You've been through something similar to this before. You're okay (for the most part), your loved ones are okay, everyone is okay. No one is hurt. No one died.

So what you are going to do is go ahead and put "If I Had a Gun" on, cry for as long as you can (and daydream about how you wish one day a man would look at you just like the lyrics describe), and NO MORE AFTER THAT. And STOP the suicidal ideation IDEATION right this minute. This is the one time you can actually say that suicide would be a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It will eventually mean nothing to you. Yes, it's a giant blow to your already crippled self-esteem, but YOU WILL BE OKAY. In fact, this better be your attitude afterwards!

I can't do this anymore. Something has to change.

Picture Of The Day

I initially wanted that picture on a T-shirt for work, but now I want one just in general. Especially when people bitch to me about their health ailments. Then I can just point to my shirt. Yes, I know I sound like a bratty little child (although I suspect hormones have a hand in this), but if no one wants to give a fuck about mine, why should I have to give a fuck about theirs?

Picture(s) Of The Day

If there was a way I could print this out and blow it up to like super poster size, I would and then I would hang it up on one of the walls in my office. Or even better, I would have it printed on a bunch of t-shirts and wear one every single day to work until my last day and every time I make a mistake or am about to get in trouble for something, I will just point to my shirt:

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The idea of me going into work with that shirt on just made me laugh so hard I almost choked. The realization of how many other people, including the ones not losing their job, would probably want a shirt made me laugh even harder. Also....this:

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