Random Thoughts

I woke up with a little irritation down below this morning, but it eventually went away. And so far I haven't had much, if any, and no bladder irritability. Hopefully it will stay like that, although I'd still like to know what caused it. I still have the heart palpitations, though. And every time I feel hot, I start to panic, which in turn makes me hotter, which makes me even more anxious, and so on. Anxiety is a real bitch. A real powerful bitch.

I had originally wanted to go to the Peddler's Village blueberry festival yesterday, but since my anxiety levels have been so bad, I didn't push to go because I didn't want to go to something that I have been wanting to go to for a couple years feeling miserable as shit, so we ended up not doing much of anything yesterday except spending an exorbitantly amount of time in a Super Wal-Fart and then going to dinner at Longhorn. But we decided to go to Peddler's today and despite being hot and somewhat overcast, it was a nice day. Plus it wasn't mad busy like when we go to Apple Fest.

And now it's back to hell tomorrow. Ugh. At least my manager is out on vacation this week, so it should be a little bit less stressful. After Friday, I am glad she isn't going to be in. She was a real fucking pain in the ass on Friday, especially with what she did in the morning. I was working on a chart and I get an email from someone at our sister company telling me she just wanted to let me know that more records came in for the person's chart I was working on and my manager was included in the email and she writes us both back letting the other person know that I'd print them out and work on them. So I start to print them out and my FWA asks me if I was printing medical records and I said yeah and she asked me who and I tell her who and she tells me she is printing them out. I said "What? Why are you printing them out when [manager] asked me to print them out?" and she says she got an email from her asking her to print them out. I said "well, that doesn't make any sense!" and then my manager came out and I said "why is FWA printing out the same medical records you asked me to print out?". I was so damn tense and anxious that the whole thing just really pissed and I didn't really give a shit how I talked to my manager. And she acted all dumb and a few minutes later she comes out and says it was her fault. Uh, well who else's would it be? But this is what pissed me off- she went up and apologized to my FWA.

I don't understand how someone sends two different people an email asking them to print out the same person's medical records. How fucking stupid is that? I could see if she asked and then maybe just forgot. But you have the damn email right in front of you! I don't understand 99% of the shit that dumb bitch does. Just like the whole thing with lunch the Thursday before the Fourth of July. How on any planet did that situation make sense? And she has the nerve to complain about all of the stupidity at our sister company? Throwing stones and glass houses and all that.

And I love how she just allows people's mistakes to be swept under the rug like nothing. I was working on a chart that same Thursday and it kind of ended abruptly and I thought it was odd so I pulled up the original set of medical records and found several visits and legal paperwork that were not in the chart I had in front of me. Here when it was printed out by the coworker who plays on her phone all the time, she missed printing out at least a good half inch of records. Probably because she was too busy playing on her phone or on the internet while she was doing it. And my manager said something to her about it and that was it. Guess who had to reprint it out and organize it and everything? Not her. And this isn't the first time I have found medical records that were printed out by her that were not completely printed out. I don't know how she works as a medical assistant, but as a regular employee she fucking sucks. I am far from a perfect worker and I make mistakes, but she is just freaking ridiculous. And I know damn well it's because she probably plays on her phone or on the internet when she is doing this stuff.

And I could probably rant about my FWA for about another hour, but I am too damn tired to do so. But I have to laugh how every time she posts something on Facebook her mother and her boyfriend's mother get into these mini spats. You're 2 freaking middle-aged women! Grow the hell up already! And the time her mother said that breast fed babies don't get colic make me laugh and laugh and laugh. Uh, yeah they do. I don't even have babies and I know that. Now I know where her daughter gets her stupidity and obnoxiousness from.

And speaking of parenthood, I can't stand that Apple iPhone commercial with that annoying living the life of dreams song. That song is so fucking annoying! I can just picture a twee Zooey Deschanel-looking hipster thing singing it. It sounds like some Juno hipster crap. Now I actually liked Juno, but the music in it.....lol noo. And that new singing Wendy's commercial....FFS.

And speaking of Apple, I don't know why people bitch about Internet Explorer sucking as a browser (I am not referring to the security complaints) because Safari does a pretty fine job of sucking eggs itself. It crashes constantly, you open a tab, go back, and it reloads itself. Dafuq, Apple?

Also, I am feeling a little irritated and hot now. And here comes the anxiety.