Song Of The Day

I am absolutely not one bit ashamed to admit I cried when I first listened to this song:



Dan, man, that hair.....and that is almost nothing compared to it here.

#12.....dat ass.

Never thought I'd be someone turned on by dudes in skinny jeans.

Random Thoughts

Well, it's been an interesting weekend. Friday night, the group of us- me, my mom, sister, aunt, grandmom, my mom's friend and my aunt's friend- finally got together again and went to dinner. We went to the new Longhorn in Deptford. Where 99 used to be *sniffs*. You wouldn't even know it was a 99. God, I love Longhorn. And I had a REAL cheeseburger.

Saturday was just a WTF day. It was Irish Weekend down the shore and we usually go. My dad assumed we were going, but never said anything to anyone. And we ended up not going, due to that and due to my mom's car breaking down. My sister refused to offer up her car to go and my mother got mad at her, since they do nothing but drive her places all the time. I got the blunt end of her anger, that parents should be killed when they reach a certain age, and she wishes she could move far away so she doesn't have to deal with anyone anymore (really- do people still wonder why I am so fucked up in the head?). But I ended up just running to some stores, coming home, then running back out later. And having the fun of getting caught in a downpour.

Sunday we decided to go to down the shore for Irish Weekend. And thanks to the cold front moving in on Saturday, it was nice and cool out. It was a nice day overall.

ONTD put up a post on MGMT performing at the Joshua Light Show and I watched a little bit of it on Youtube, and it actually made me feel a little better about not going. Don't get me wrong, I still would have went had I gotten the chance. I honestly knew nothing about the Joshua Light Show, and I was far too lazy to research it, but the show was nothing like I expected. I thought they would be performing their usual songs, but they didn't. There was no singing. Just weird music. It was cool, I won't deny it, but it was one of those artsy shows I would have sat staring at in absolute horror and absolute fascination. I like weird things, but some things I just don't get.

I wonder why Andrew decided to grow his hair out again. I'm certainly not complaining, since he is about the only man I think can pull it off, but he kept it short for a long time. And it's odd to say about someone about to turn 30 years old in a few months, but he's getting so grown up looking! I still want someone to put him and Harry together in a picture so I can finally figure out why he reminds me of Andrew. That would make my day, to see them two together in a picture. Also, they share a birthday. February 1st was apparently a good day.

Picture #10.....dat ass.

Random Thoughts

Oh insomnia, how I hate you.

Since I have been laid off, I have had to deal with what I call "scumbag brain" (thanks, Memebase) almost every morning. I wake up for no reason and then my mind starts running and eventually it turns into an analysis (and extremely crtitical) of my life. The typical you can't do anything right, you're a failure, nothing can change that, etc. And I can't go back to sleep.

It almost makes me sad how much self-loathing I have.

I'm pretty exhausted right now but I know if I climb into bed, I am going to get "scumbag brain" because I am anxious about going to the eye doctor later on. Right now all I see are the goddamn floaters while I am trying to type and it's aggravating and stressing me out. They have been bad for a while, probably since long before I worried the last time, but whether they are actually worse or not is beyond me. I've kind of grown accustomed to them over the years.

So instead I am up, on here, with some corny ass Lifetime Movie movie on called Girl Fight. It's some movie based on that real life story about those girls that beat the crap out of another girl and posted it online. I hate movies like this. They always make my blood boil. And make me definitely not ever want kids. If I saw my child getting the ever loving crap beat out of them on the internet, I don't know what I would do. I am sure it would involve assault of some sort, though.

And the other thing that annoys me about this movie is not only is practically everyone a terrible actor, but these girls are some ugly ass bitches. Good god. Especially the Alexa chick and the blonde one with the fat face that did the bulk of the beating. They all looked like they were beaten as badly as Haley with an ugly stick. And listening to Alexa constantly whine that she didn't touch her she didn't do anything wrong was nauseating. Not the point, bitch.

And I already know the ending of the movie from the IMDB forums and....really???!!

I also am already dreading having to go up to unemployment for the first time this week. And I am NOT looking forward to it! I've heard some stories, man!

I never get these people. If it weren't for us, they'd have no fucking jobs!

Anyway, there does exist a picture showing the actual full buttocks, and I have seen it, and it was good, but I can't seem to find it. So instead....this:

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ETA 11/16: FOUND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMFG I am blushing something fierce looking at that. I just can't with him! I cannot fantasize sexually about him! I try and my brain pretty much gives me a system error! Don't get me wrong....if given the chance, OH!!!!!!! The things I would let him do to me! But if I try to picture it, I can't! I feel like a dirty old pervert, even though he is older than me!

Also, here is a picture where he has that look. That look of being up to no good. Everyone else looks like they are behaving. Well, maybe except for Ben. I don't know what he is doing there, but it's sexfully hysterical. But Andrew? That's some shady side eye there. He almost has that SOON look. What'd you do or are planning to do there, Andrew?!

Ugh, it does not help that "Sex On Fire" just came on the radio!