Ugh

I am not looking forward to being examined later on. I hope I can get an answer but at the same time I am terrified of what might be found.

Ever since Saturday, I have been listening to "All Things All At Once" every night when I go to bed. I have just listened to it twice and am ready to hit repeat.

Random Thoughts

I have had an inexplicable obsession with "All Things All At Once" today. I think I have listened to it at least 10 times. It is such a good song.

I just felt hot and now my anxiety levels are starting to rise. I am also seeing no clear signs of ovulation and am starting to feel anxious. I never thought I would be so desperate to go the gynocologist as I am right now. Thank god my appointment is this week. I hope the doctor can help me get this straightened out, although at the same time I am terrified what she will tell me. And how bad it will hurt. And if it hurts me really bad then I will panic even more that I have vaginal atrophy, unless I am told I have a perfectly healthy looking vadge.

Oh, who I am kidding? I'll still be upset and worry.

Song Of The Day

I remember hearing this song on the Adult Alt Rock Station on Music Choice a few months ago and liking it, then kind of forgot about it, and heard it again last night:



ETA: I had no idea the guy singing was Gary Lightbody from Snow Patrol.