Random Thoughts

Meh, sorry about that last entry. I wasn't suicidal or anything. And even if I was, please. Like I'd attempt suicide. I fail at everything, even being suicidal. It was mainly hormones, but also a huge dose of my normal insanity. I still feel like a huge idiot, though, for feeling the way I do. I don't think I will ever understand my mind. And this kind of behavior just convinces me even more that I don't think I was ever given a relationship gene when I was created. I am starting to strongly believe I am completely incapable of relationships. Especially love relationships. Which makes me sad. I want to be in love. I want to know what it is to actually be in love. No more of this unrequited crush infatuation shit that messes with my mind.

But I have to get my personality fixed. Right now, all of my relationships with people are very.....unusual. I am fine with them, then I hate them for some stupid reason or for no reason at all, then I am fine with them again. I can be willing to throw myself in front of a train for someone, would get down on the ground and kiss their feet, and in a split second, can be ridiculously pissed off at them for some minute reason, sometimes no reason at all, and can be right back to worshiping them again the next day. It gets to be kind of annoying.

I had the joy of having my cavity filled on Thursday. I was lucky enough to only have to get one shot of Novocaine, although I did feel some pain when the dentist was drilling the tooth. I hate when the tooth gets drilled. I feel like my entire brain is shaking. I usually have to shut my eyes because my vision gets all distorted from it. And then feeling the pain wasn't very pleasant. When I was waiting in line to pay, the receptionist got up and went into another room, came back a few minutes later and told me they were only going to charge me $90. I wanted to cry. I still hated having to pay that much, but it was a lot better than the usual $180.

We're going to be having Thanksgiving dinner this weekend because my sister is working on Thursday. I'm honestly annoyed. I want dinner on Thanksgiving day. I still can have some of whatever is leftover of food on Thursday, of course. Except for turkey. Leftover turkey is nasty. But I'm definitely saving my leftover pie for Thursday. It won't be the same, though.

I went to Chick-Fil-A for dinner. Aside from their ass backwards views, I don't know why people hate Chick-Fil-A. I think their food is pretty good, for fast food. I hated myself every minute of enjoying my sandwich. But damn, that was a good sandwich.

NOOOOOOOOO!

I didn't want to believe it was true before, but

Dan Cathy, Chick-Fil-A President, On Anti-Gay Stance: 'Guilty As Charged'

Chick-Fil-A, I AM DISAPPOINT

Luckily, I don't eat there that often. I only go because I get coupons in the mail every so often for a free sandwich. Apparently I am in the minority, because I love Chick-Fil-A. I think their chicken sandwiches and waffle fries are good. I also like their hospitality. I have never received rude treatment at any of my local Chick-Fil-As. Everyone always goes out of their way.

I kept hearing it, and I suspected it was true due to their whole being closed on Sunday shtick, but I kept blinders up. But hey! Go ahead and be against gay marriage! If you want to stand there and preach that marriage should be between a man and a woman only, then by all means, be my guest! Allow for fat ass urinal cakes to wed troll-faced dumbasses for 72 days, because what does it matter? It's still between a man and a woman! God, I hate this world.

Boy, I wish I could get in office one day. I'd ban all marriage.

I just read some article over on Yahoo about that Olympic dude with no legs (too lazy to look up the name again) bagging some Russian model. Oh, look at that. What a surprise. Dude gets famous and the models start coming out of the woodwork, and then suddenly that will be all he will date. JUST LIKE SOMEONE ELSE I KNOW. Anyway, the comment section has my sides hurting from laughing. I am surely ensuring my trip to hell more and more.