Article Of The Day

This is a wonderful article:

Attitude Magazine » Darren Hayes: ‘We are all Robin Williams’

I can't say I was ever a huge fan of Robin Williams. I saw plenty of movies with him, like Ms. Doubtfire, Aladdin, Toys, etc and was obsessed with watching old episodes of Mork & Mindy when I was a kid. Oh, and Nine Months also- now that movie he was hysterical.

I didn't know a whole lot about Robin Williams, so I didn't know he had depression issues or if he was open about them. I did know a little about the addiction problems, that's about it. But he was a good example of how looks can be deceiving, how someone can appear to be so happy but dying emotionally on the inside. I think if people were to discover just how much emotional pain I have, they'd be shocked, because my outward appearance and demeanor barely shows it.

And every person who makes a comment that oh but he seemed to have it all or that suicide is cowardly or selfish or oh someone I know survived this or anything remotely similar needs to sit down. Forever. On a bench with rusty nails sticking up.

The WTF Of The Day

The Frisky

I am someone who will often say one thing and then change my opinion on it down the line. I once said JHO did not look bad in that catsuit and a few months later totally ripped her to shreds about it. I once said that Darren Hayes did not look any hotter than when he had the long black hair. Well, I changed my mind on that too. His best look is definitely the short hair.

This article is going to be another example. I once said to keep Tila Tequila on earth because idiots like her make me look sane. But I changed my mind. I am not even going to wish death on her. I'd rather just see her placed in front of a firing squad. Suicide is not a fucking joke, you dumb cunt.

Sandra Bullock & Scarlett Johannson Kiss At MTV Awards (PHOTOS)

Oh, for the love of....the girl on girl kissing thing is really starting to get old. And incredibly, incredibly annoying. Especially when it is done by people who are trying to push for gay rights. Yeah, push your gay rights agenda while pretty much implying that sexuality is a choice.

Dumbasses.

EDIT Thursday: Please place Lindsay Lohan and her mother in front of that firing squad also. I swear to god, if that little bitch does not get sent to jail or an inner city rehab center soon, I am going to go apeshit.

Random Thoughts

I am little late on this, but holy freaking crap! I can't believe Congress actually passed the healthcare reform bill through!

It absolutely astonishes me how many people believe there should be NO healthcare reform. Rich morons, blockheads who already receive socialized medicine, and idiots with the "it can never happen to me" mentality are the ones most likely to be against it. You can't lose your health insurance? It's here to stay forever? You will never lose your job? You won't get a fucking brain tumor and have your health insurance refuse to pay your bills? Aetna won't deny you coverage because you stuffed your face with fattening foods and are now fat as hell and have diabetes? No. None of this will happen to you because nothing bad could ever happen to you. Bad things don't happen to you because God loves you and thinks your special.

Yeah. Keep telling yourself that. Or better yet, get bent.

If I had to say the one good thing about me having obsessive compulsive disorder and anxiety is I never have the mentality of "it could never happen to me". In fact, I have the exact opposite- it will happen to me! Thinking bad things will always happen to you is, quite frankly, a better situation to be in then to think it never will. That way, if it does, it won't be that shocking.

People who want healthcare reform are not all "gimme gimme gimme everything for free" or have the I am owed stuff mentality. I am not asking for free health insurance. I am asking for health insurance that won't murder my finances. Healthcare reform is more than just affordable healthcare, assholes. It's about having the peace of mind that if you develop cancer or something else, your health insurance company won't fuck you up the ass. It's about not having to worry that when you are able to get health insurance, you won't be denied coverage because you are sick. I am terrified that when I apply for health insurance, I am going to be denied due to being sick in the head. Oh sure, health insurance companies don't want to treat mental hilarity the same as diabetes, but they will have no problem denying coverage.

People who are uninsured are not all lazy bastards. I see many files a day where the person is uninsured and most of them have decent jobs!

I would say that I think every Congress member who voted nay have their socialized medicine revoked, but then there are some, like John Adler, who voted against it for a different reason.

Like Lady Miss Kier wrote on her FB page:

prayers don't pay the Doctor's bills

Darren Hayes' response to the passing was just as good:

Welcome to the 21st Century. Amen

In less than a month, it has been almost 2 years since my friend was killed in a car accident. I have never really been able to react to it. A month or so ago, "Don't Look Back In Anger" by Oasis came on (it was one of her favorite bands) and I broke down a little. The other night, I was doing something and I had been listening to "Anthem" and something made me think of her and when the "this is an anthem for...." part came on, I burst into tears and couldn't stop crying. I have never properly grieved over her death and while I still don't think I have, that was the closest I have come. It's hard to grieve over someone's death when you don't see death as all that bad.

I did have a nice day today. Then I had to go and ruin it by stepping on the scale and finding out I was about 7 to 8 pounds heavier than what I weighed Thursday morning. Certainly much of it was probably from my high sodium laden dinner and 100+ oz of soda. I was already unhappy with the scale Thursday. I was kind of bad last weekend- not the worst I have ever been- and I have been having stomach trouble all week so whether that attributed to the 1.5 to 2 pound weight gain I saw Thursday I don't know. SO what did I in response to that 7/8 pound weight hold? I gorged. And then I threw up. Three times. Most of it was liquidy. I don't even know if I threw up what I gorged on. For a while, I was doing this once a week. Then I finally put a stop to it. And then I had to go and do it again last week. It needs to stop. I don't want to turn into a full fledged bulimic. My esophagus is on fire right now. I already have acid reflux. If I keep this up, I am not going to have any esophagus left. I am very angry at myself for engaging in vomiting again.

I am sick of my brain. I know that there are many things in my life where I feel the complete opposite of what "normal" people feel, but I truly wish that something other than a chemical imbalancement is what is behind my whole being. A brain tumor, a nervous system disorder, whatever- anything is better than saying "oh no, my serotonin/dopamine/whatever the fuck is behind it are all off". It's a sick, sad thing to say, but I want to have an MRI or whatever done and be told there is a brain tumor or lesion or something. Anything to explain this abrupt nasty change in me. Until then....where the hell is that Q-Tip?

Quote Of The Day

Darren Hayes on Clive Owen:

....he's obviously very handsome....

Darren has excellent taste in men, although I would argue that "handsome" does not justify Clive Owen. His voice alone makes me wanna tear his clothes off with my teeth.

My God, he is such a handsome man. Why? Why?! WHY DOES HE HAVE TO BE GAY?!

Speaking of Darren, I noticed that just like with Deee-Lite, any mention of a reunion of Savage Garden is met with hostility. It annoys me when bands break up and they won't say why. Why can't they just give some sort of reason? They don't need to be specific. If Deee-Lite broke up due to Dmitry and Lady Miss Kier, fine, then why can't they just say they broke up because of problems between the two of them? We don't need exact details. Just some sort of reasoning. I think fans have a right to know why their favorite groups broke up because last time I checked, they would have never made it as a band if it wasn't for the fans!

Speaking of annoying things, I saw a comment on Lady Miss Kier's Facebook page (at least, it claims to be really hers; it does seem to kind of check out) that once again compared Lady Gaga to her. Every time I see their names together in a sentence, I get stabby. Am I blind or something? I don't see how they can be compared! This looks nothing like this! Lady Miss Kier looks pretty normal. Can't say the same for Lady Gaga. If you put that outfit on Lady Miss Kier, she would make it look good. And Lady Miss Kier wouldn't need to wear that freaking net thing over her face. Stop freaking comparing them, although I do have to say that comparing Lady Miss Kier and Lady Gaga is a fraction better than the absolutely preposterous comparison of Deee-Lite and Paramore I once saw. What, they both die their hair red and are the only chicks in the group? OMG it's like they're freaking twins! (Yeah. I don't think so.)

That is still not the worst comparison. If I ever dare see one comparison of Lady Miss Kier to that piece of smelly ass trash Kesha- notice I do not put the dollar sign in her name because symbols do not belong in names- I will go absolutely postal.

Good God. I was starting to like Lady Gaga, but now she is just starting to get on my nerves. I seen the video for "Telephone" the other night and....WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ALL ABOUT? The video didn't even have anything to do with the song! How does a song about not wanting to pick up a call churn out a video that Quentin Tarantino would get a boner over? The song is pretty good, with the exception of Beyonce. Speaking of annoying people....

Video Of The Day

Last week, for some unclear reason, I decided to go on to Youtube and look up "To The Moon And Back" by Savage Garden. I was in the middle of the Katie Chandler series and I think it might have had something to do with how one of the characters was described. I had a ginormous crush on Darren Hayes once upon a time. When, I cannot remember; I think it might have been high school. My high school diaries surely would have had some mention of it, but seeing as they no longer exist (they were in an unforunate accident with my temper, depression, and a paper shredder), I have no concrete evidence. I am thinking it might have been my freshman year, because I clearly remember liking "The Animal Song" that year, so I knew who they were then. Also, I am almost 100% positive he was still married to a chick when I had a crush on him.

Normally, guys with longer hair are a turn off to me, but for him, it just worked. He's cute with short hair, too, but the longer hair....dang! My jaw hit the floor several years later when he came out. I was long past my crush on him by then, but I still wanted to do the whole fall on my knees and scream "NOOOOOOOO!" thing when I found out. However, now looking at pictures and videos, I can kinda see it. I'd still hit it, though.

Anyway...."To The Moon and Back" (one of like 6000 different videos):



*fans self* Sessy!