Random Thoughts

In my annual performance review, I got a 4.75 out of 5 for attendance. I have been thinking about it and thinking about it and I am PISSED. I am NEVER late. I NEVER leave early. My lunch has NEVER ONCE gone over 30 minutes. I have called out ONCE. Why in the FUCK do I only get a 4.75?! And of course I am too much of a goddamn pussy to speak up and say anything.

I swear, one of these days I am going to get so sick and tired of being taken advantage of and not speaking up for myself that I am going to split into 2 personalities a la Me, Myself & Irene. And I hate the phrase, but there is no other way to describe it- it's going to be fucking EPIC.

In work on Friday, that luncheon was planned for noon. Before that, I had went up to ask my FWA something and she asked me what was I doing about taking lunch (I always take lunch around 1:30, she takes it after I get back, which reminds me of something else to complain about) and then says she doesn't know what she is going to do, because she can't not see her baby (she always drives to her mom's during lunch). I wanted to laugh at her. Millions of moms work and take lunch without ever seeing their babies until they get home! God, she is so fucking ridiculous. She said she'd probably just take her usual lunch, but then she ended up going in to the luncheon at noon and staying in there for a good 45 minutes.....and then still went home at her normal lunch time! It amazes me how much my manager lets her get away with.

And going back to the lunch thing, the day my FWA came back, I get an email from my manager telling me I need to sit upfront when my FWA goes to lunch. I wanted to write back and say excuse me am I the only one who works in the office? Like why do I have to be the only one who ever sits up front? Why can't it be alternated? It's such fucking bullshit. God, I need a backbone.

On another note, last weekend my mom and I ran to Target to get some things and while I was there, I thought maybe I will buy the Imagine Dragons CD since I liked it so much and there was one copy left so I grabbed it and figured eh I'll decide before I leave whether I want to actually buy. I ended up buying it and put it on in the car on the way home. "Radioactive" is the first song on the album and a few seconds into the lyrics starting I hear my mom singing along with it. I said "you actually know this song?!" and she said something like oh yeah I have heard it on TV before. I just laughed. I know I have played it before in the car with her but I didn't think she actually really knew it. Then again, it did get played a lot there for awhile.

I never quite got the blow up of the song, because it blew up long after I first started hearing it on the radio. My local alt rock station 104.5 was playing it long before other stations. I think I remember hearing it on 104.5 as far back as January 2013. It was one of those songs like "Kids"- I kept hearing it and liked it, but never did any research on the name or group (and if I recall, I thought it was that Alex Clare guy). I didn't actually download it until March 2013. And several months later, out of nowhere, it was playing EVERYWHERE.

God, I am going to be SO FAT after the past few days of eating!