IT'S MIND SHAMING TIME EVERYBODY

I am about to post something that will probably embarrass the hell out of me and succeed in making me look like a complete ass (well, bigger than usual). But before I start, I have to complain about work. My coworkers recently found a new radio station to listen to. And all day long today, they kept going on and on about how great the station was and how they play such a big variety. I don't know what they were listening to, because I did not hear any variety! I heard the same damn shit over and over again. I heard that damn Avicii "Wake Me Up" song 5 fucking times and that annoying Sara Barawhatever "Brave" song 4 times in an 8 hour period. Hand to God, no exaggeration. And I had just started to like that new OneRepublic song "Counting Stars" over the weekend. I'm annoyed with it already. 106.1 the Mix, you are the worst.

Oh, and apparently everyone I work with ermagherd just lurves Katy Perry! UGH!!

Anyway, last night I saw something on one of the MGMT Tumblr pages I stal- check out that was a prime example of why children should not be let near the internet. Apparently someone decided to take something written in an interview with Andrew's girlfriend in a foreign magazine and start some rumor that they were engaged. It ended up just being a translation mistake and they are not (confirmed by Andrew's old man). The interview came out a while ago; why would someone decide to make an issue out of it now? I'll tell you why- because kids are stupid.

I can't deny it- I felt a slight drop in my stomach when I first read it. But I have to say I was more "meh" on it than I thought I would be, so that is a good sign. Look, I know I have no chance with him. I don't know why I would get upset if it happened. And everyone was all excited on this particular page and I'm like, why can't I feel happy if it were true? They're cute together (just hope he respects her). It bugs me that I would get upset. I'm too old for this shit.

I don't understand my feelings with this at all. I've gone over this over and over and over and over again- I know I am being irrational yet I still feel them. WHY IS THAT? It bugs the ever loving shit out of me. This is why I need therapy, folks.

Also, I mentioned a few times before about people hating on his girlfriend, but apparently there are Andrew fans out there that seem to worship her, too. Sure she is cute and seems like a nice girl, but still. It's kind of creepy. It's like worship by proxy. They wouldn't give a shit about the poor girl if she wasn't dating Andrew. Wonder if these kids worshiped his last girlfriend, too. Can just imagine what happened after he broke up with her right before going on stage to perform. Then it was probably adios, senorita, we hate you now. They'd probably all do the same thing if he ever breaks up with the current one, which if he is anything like his fellow modelizer assholes (e.g Leonardo DiCraprio, Adam Levine), it could very well happen eventually. I hope he isn't like those two, but then again I didn't think he was the type to be shallow enough to only date models and look how wrong I was in that.

Ugh, that break-up story still doesn't sit right with me.

On another note, I can't fucking deal with this premature menopause fear anymore. I'm seriously contemplating asking for my hormone levels to be checked when I finally make an appointment with my doctor. You know, it's nice to have medical again, but for someone who is probably an undiagnosed hypochondriac, it just opens up a world of trouble since I now have access to medical care and tests and will relentlessly feed into my sick minded obsession with my health.