The WTF Of The Day

Oh look, another potential "disorder" for some undisciplined brat to be diagnosed with:

Tantrum Diagnosis: DSM-V May Include Disruptive Mood Dysregulation Disorder 

Oh APA, I hope you are never in the market to get mental illness to be taken more seriously. Because you are not helping. If this "disorder" gets added, then psychiatrists will take advantage of it. Tons of kids will be over-diagnosed, meds will be doled out like candy, Big Pharma will explode in profits (gee, maybe I should invest in some Big Pharma stock), more kids' brains will be fucked up. And Mommy and Daddy can just sit back with one less thing on their shoulders. Oh don't mind my kid nearly murdering another kid. He's just got [insert latest trendy diag-nonsense].

And then there was this part:

Previously announced changes to the manual are already causing controversy, particularly the decision to eliminate Asperger’s Syndrome as a separate diagnosis and merge it into the broader category of Autism Spectrum Disorder. In an age when diagnosis has become identity, that move was widely criticized by “Aspies” who take pride in their diagnosis. 

Are you kidding me?

The WTF Of The Day

Of course, every thing is still just rumors, but this:

Oh No they Didn't! - #Haylor 2012

This bitch. Little Miss Woe Is Me. Little Miss Dumb Open Mouth Shocked Face. Little Miss Innocent, yet goes through men like I go through diet Coke. Can't be without a relationship for more than 5 seconds. She's exactly what I would be in a relationship, except I am smart enough to stay out of them for the sole reason of being completely emotionally unstable. And I would have the clarity to know that after multiple failed relationships that it is more than likely ME, not the men. She's pathetic. The fact that my sister can't even stomach her speaks volumes. I have always hated her music, but I never used to have a problem with her. Now she is just annoying. Her schtick of oh woe is me I'm always a poor wittle victim is old and tiresome. Just the other day I saw an article that said she cries when she hears dating rumors about herself (*sighs* celebrity problems). Oh boohoo. Stop jumping from man to man so quickly and maybe they will stop. Go take a lesson from the Adonis above on how to be a proper entertainer. Actually no. You stay away from him, bitch. If Taylor Swift went near him, my inner psychotic fan girl would come out. She doesn't even deserve to be in the same room as him. Or to breathe his air. NONE OF YOU DO.

I like how this alleged relationship is folding out. Both have new albums out. It just so happens to occur on the set of the American version of the show that made one half so popular. All these "sources" and "witnesses", but no names or pictures or recordings or anything. Yeah. Absolutely nothing suspicious about that. Sometimes I think those crazy Larry people are onto something with the whole "#management" stuff. Everything with these bands and singers always just seems a little too perfectly calculated.

But you know what pisses me off about this, if it's true? The attacks on a 22 year-old woman dating an 18 year-old man. When it's reversed why is it never a big deal? Did Andrew get flack for his last girlfriend, who was 19 years-old in 2009, when he was 26? Did he get reamed out by people? Was he called a cradle robber, immature, etc? I really don't know, because I don't care enough to look. But I am going to go with no, probably not. Because it's okay for men to do it, but when women do it, they are cougars, pathetic, and immature. If I went and told people I'd fuck Louis, who is a day less than 8 years younger than me, six ways from Sunday, I'd get called all three of the above and more. But Andrew- I love you sweetie and I am sorry I am talking negatively about you- will be 30 years old in less than 3 months and can date and screw a 22 year old (if the current SO is who I think it is) and nothing is said. That isn't fair. What the fuck, people? If it's dirty and disgusting if I do it, then it's dirty and disgusting if Andrew does it. No double standards.

If this is ever confirmed by one or the other, the 1D fans will lose their fucking minds. It will be HYSTERICAL what will get thrown at Taylor. This fan base interests me so much that I wish I could do a sociological study on them. Some of this stuff I have seen tweeted at the boys' real Twitter accounts.....how do these people have the backbones and gall to say this stuff out loud? It's one thing to think it in your mind, or say it out loud to your friends, but back off with saying it directly to the person. Or the person's significant other. Or family. Whatever.

And Harry, sweetheart, RUN. RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN.

And to make up for my bad mouthing, I am going to go stare at a 9 picture block of Andrew for the next 10 minutes. Penance, and all that. I like that middle picture at the top. He has such a pleasant smile. And the one below it is adorable. I wish I could remember where I seen a larger version of it. Even the cat looks like, who is this astonishing gorgeous creature puckering up to me? And here is a larger version of the one next to the kitty picture (that hair. THAT HAIR. Those waves and curls. I want to run my fingers through them). And then I have to go watch multiple viewings of their performance of "I Found A Whistle" from MTV's World Stage while I, as well as my ovaries, weep at his beauty. *sniffs* WHY IS HE SO GORGEOUS?!

Random Thoughts

Meh, sorry about that last entry. I wasn't suicidal or anything. And even if I was, please. Like I'd attempt suicide. I fail at everything, even being suicidal. It was mainly hormones, but also a huge dose of my normal insanity. I still feel like a huge idiot, though, for feeling the way I do. I don't think I will ever understand my mind. And this kind of behavior just convinces me even more that I don't think I was ever given a relationship gene when I was created. I am starting to strongly believe I am completely incapable of relationships. Especially love relationships. Which makes me sad. I want to be in love. I want to know what it is to actually be in love. No more of this unrequited crush infatuation shit that messes with my mind.

But I have to get my personality fixed. Right now, all of my relationships with people are very.....unusual. I am fine with them, then I hate them for some stupid reason or for no reason at all, then I am fine with them again. I can be willing to throw myself in front of a train for someone, would get down on the ground and kiss their feet, and in a split second, can be ridiculously pissed off at them for some minute reason, sometimes no reason at all, and can be right back to worshiping them again the next day. It gets to be kind of annoying.

I had the joy of having my cavity filled on Thursday. I was lucky enough to only have to get one shot of Novocaine, although I did feel some pain when the dentist was drilling the tooth. I hate when the tooth gets drilled. I feel like my entire brain is shaking. I usually have to shut my eyes because my vision gets all distorted from it. And then feeling the pain wasn't very pleasant. When I was waiting in line to pay, the receptionist got up and went into another room, came back a few minutes later and told me they were only going to charge me $90. I wanted to cry. I still hated having to pay that much, but it was a lot better than the usual $180.

We're going to be having Thanksgiving dinner this weekend because my sister is working on Thursday. I'm honestly annoyed. I want dinner on Thanksgiving day. I still can have some of whatever is leftover of food on Thursday, of course. Except for turkey. Leftover turkey is nasty. But I'm definitely saving my leftover pie for Thursday. It won't be the same, though.

I went to Chick-Fil-A for dinner. Aside from their ass backwards views, I don't know why people hate Chick-Fil-A. I think their food is pretty good, for fast food. I hated myself every minute of enjoying my sandwich. But damn, that was a good sandwich.

STFU Brain

I am exhausted. I need to go to bed. And my mind will not stop racing. I saw something earlier that has been eating at me for the past hour and a half. I am pretty hormonal right now, but I am sure I would be reacting almost the same way regardless. I just want to climb into my bed, pull the covers over me, and stay there for the rest of my life. I am tired of worrying about my weight. I am tired of taking good care of my skin and it still will not clear up. I am tired of looking in the mirror in general. If I never had to look in it again, it would make my life. I am tired of falling for people and having to look at their insignificant other and know that I will never be attractive enough for that person. Whether I actually have a chance or not with the person, it still fucking hurts. And it's disappointing to know that someone you think so highly of can be so....shallow.

And most of all, I feel so fucking ridiculous. I am a fool for allowing myself to feel like this. I'm much too old for this shit. How is it I know I am being ridiculous, but I still am feeling so upset?

I really don't want to do this life thing anymore.

Song Of The Day

"4th Dimensional Transition" by....who else?



Ignore the Youtube title. It's dimensional, not dimension. I always think of this song whenever I see the episode of Futurama "Mobius Dick". Get it? Because it's a 4th dimensional space whale? Bah, that was bad. But it is why I think of the song. Plus, it's just a pretty trippy episode.

They need to finish their album already. And go on tour. And come to my area again. If I go on the internet one day and find out they will be coming to either Philly, Camden, or AC, my girlish shrieks will be heard all over the world.

The WTF Of The Day

One Direction Facts

Um....wow. How? Just how do they get this information?

This puts my stanning to shame. Big time. I know nothing of the sort when it comes to Andrew. The most private information I know about him was he was a virgin when he graduated high school. And was given a blowjob sometime during his college years (Ew. I don't care how prudish it sounds, blowjobs gross me out. I don't think I'd go that far even on Andrew. And I'd be willing to do a lot with him. The only way I'd give a blowjob is if the dude's penis was shooting out ice cream. Or whipped cream. Or rice pudding. And I don't know why, but that picture of him in the article makes the whole virgin information all the bit more funnier. Andrew's a good boy.). I probably could find some of this information if I went into the deep, dark scary depths of the internet, although I doubt I'd ever see an ultrasound picture like that of him. He was born 10 months before me. I imagine if his mommy had an ultrasound, it looks like mine- you can't see shit. My mother's ultrasound of me is hilarious. Especially compared to my sister's ultrasounds of her baby.

There is something creepisweet about those ultrasound pictures, although I am surprised there is an ultrasound of Louis. I thought he was just spawned from the depths of hell. And Jesus, Liam! If it is true....10.2 inches?! Mother of penis! I have to go find a ruler and check this out.

Random Thoughts

Ugh I am sitting here and every so often, the room starts spinning. It's really annoying. I tend to get this right before I am due for my period. Which I was expecting Friday, but has not come yet. My boobs are sore and swollen and every time I even lightly touch them, I want to scream. And if doesn't come soon, I am going to start getting really hostile. I already am pretty hostile. I snapped out on my mother earlier because I am tired of her nit-picking everything I do and she stormed off to bed. I think she might have told me to go fuck myself. Nice, eh? Love you too Mom.

Maybe I should go fuck myself.

I realized I forgot to talk about that reunion thing I went to last Sunday. Well, the previous Sunday, I guess. Turns out this is the last year for it. Kind of disappointing, since I do like going to it. I just hate that it is always the same weekend as Apple Fest, so I always end up going feeling fat and bloated. I tend to eat a lot at the reunion, mostly desserts. For an Italian thing, you'd think they would serve Italian food, but no. The food isn't bad, but it's not anything I would normally eat, except for the vegetables, since I am one of those weirdos who actually enjoys steamed broccoli and cauliflower. But the desserts. Mother of God, they are good. But back to the reunion itself. It's kind of boring, but hey, it's a night out. And I do actually get up and dance. My grandfather's boss asked me to slow dance with him. It was awkward as hell. I am a horrible slow dancer. And then there is just the whole I am socially awkward in general.

And apparently the night was just so exciting for my brother-in-law. He spent the entire night playing on his phone. And not discreetly either. He leaned on the table and held it high up. My grandmother was really pissed. So was I. I thought it was incredibly rude. And my sister doesn't even say anything. He does it ALL THE TIME. At holidays, family parties, birthdays, restaurant outings, etc. It astonishes me that he has such bad manners. One of these days I'd like to grab his phone and throw it against the wall. I am a horrible nasty person, but if there is one thing I have no patience for, besides everything, it is bad manners. And I have no patience for his rudeness. Because by him doing that, it is telling us that he bored and does not want to be around.

And normally I am the youngest one there, but this year there was a young girl maybe 8 or so there. Dressed entirely too grown up for her age and she looked like she was wearing her mother's high heels. And one point I see her go up to the DJ and a few minutes later, that fucking "Cotton Eye Joe" song starts playing and she is the only one doing the stupid dance to it and everyone is clapping and cheering her on. I just rolled my eyes. Why do people find everything kids do just so adorable? And I just hate that song with the passion of a million fiery suns. My mother's friend's grandchildren are all obsessed with it as well. I don't understand why so many kids are so obsessed with it. It's old, for one. I think I was in middle school when it first came out. And it sucks eggs. This song and the "Macarena" (another one kids are still obsessed with) both need to go die in a fire.

I like to condemn music a lot, but one time I was reading something about bad music and someone mentioned that there is bad music in every decade. And I thought about it for a little bit and then said, you know what this person is absolutely right. Thinking back to older generation music, a lot of songs I grew up listening to, yeah, there is. For instance, I hate "Do Wah Diddy Diddy" by Manfred Mann. That song is just AWFUL. And while I like a few songs by them, and even odder a lot of bands I like are fans of them, I have never gotten the appeal of the Beach Boys. I hate "California Girls". I don't want to be no California girl. Fuck you, Beach Boys. "Leader of the Pack" by the Shangra-Las is another one. And that old song that Pearl Jam later covered, the "oh where oh where can my baby be the lord took her away from"....UGH.

And I grew up listening to a lot of doo-wop era music and while I still do enjoy some of it, now I listen to it and want to stab my eardrums.

Random Thoughts

I'm still in awe that Obama won. And you know what the funny thing is? When the opponent gives the concession speech, I always feel a little bad for them. I don't know why. I shouldn't. I do not care for Romney, and especially not for Ryan. God, that guy gives me the creeps. I felt bad in 2008 when McCain gave his speech as well. I think I might have mentioned it before.

Mom was funny on Tuesday night. She was so excited Obama won.

I stayed up and watched the speech even though I was exhausted and there was one point where they showed this young black kid, maybe 10 years old or so, and the look on his face. He had this look of absolute hope, like if this man in front of me can do it, I can do it too. It warmed my heart. The look on his face made me want to cry more than the president's speech.

I went shopping with my mother and my sister because she wanted to get a new maternity top and since the maternity section is right next to children's, she had to use the fitting room in that section. And while I was waiting, I happened to look over at these bras for little girls. And I was like if those are padded, I am going to scream. And sure enough, they were. It made me want to throw up. Can someone please explain to me why a young girl needs to wear a padded bra? And look, I had a time in my life where I couldn't wait to grow up, but as a grown up now, it fucking sucks. Life can really suck as an adult. Enjoy being a kid as much as you can.

My sister contacted a former coworker, who I had worked for as a babysitter, about me maybe going to Planned Parenthood to have a check-up for why I keep bleeding in between periods (what? I felt really weird contacting her myself). But she said the same thing my sister said- they probably would put me on birth control. I don't want to go on birth control because 1) duh, possible weight gain and 2) I don't want to fuck with my hormones, although it appears something isn't right with them anyway. But since the fear of Addison's disease appeared in my life, I don't like the endocrine system. I don't want to mess with it. Every time I see those commercials on TV for drugs for low testosterone or menopause, or this thyroid drug in one of the catalogs we receive, I want to scream. Don't mess with your endocrine system! Don't mess with it because you are not horny or can't get a fucking boner. Don't mess with it unless it's life threatening.

Besides, I am not sexually active. If I were, then yes, I would probably be on some type of birth control. And sexual pardner would have some kind of protection as well. No condoms, no sex. I do not want any unneeded pregnancies or STDs. Particularly the former.

The WTF Of The Day

17 People Talking About Assassinating The President

Are you kidding me? Are you fucking kidding me? No. NO. This goes for both political parties. These people, the people who wished death on Romney.....you all should be ashamed of yourselves.

Election Day Y'all!

Did everyone vote? I did. Cast my ballot a little before 3:00PM.

7:48PM: I know it's election night, but why could Fox not play the Simpsons and then cover the election? Gosh!

8:15PM: Completely off topic, but....sounds like someone is on the rag again:

Louis Tomlinson: People who say I'm in a gay relationship with Harry Styles aren't real One Direction fans

Look, I don't fault him for his frustration at the fans who have said nasty things towards his "girlfriend" and family, but he really doesn't know how to SHUT THE FUCK UP, does he? Listen, Louis, I have some advice for you- don't piss off your fans. In addition to that fat British asshole who created the group, your fans made you, and they can easily break you. And this is exactly what you are going to do by saying this. And don't say that you don't care, because I would like to hear you say that in a couple years (is that too generous?) when your popularity has bottomed out and you're fucking dirt poor. You're not the first, and you will not be the last, celebrity to get this harassment. If you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen. Plus, with the way kids are today, I wouldn't put it past any of them to get pissed off enough to actually resort to violence.

He should take lessons from Harry. That boy never creates trouble. Because he is a flawless little prince (it must have something to do with being born on February 1st). And look at him in that article picture. Gorgeous, but he has a punchable face. He has the kind of face I want to punch, and then make out with. Or maybe make out with and then punch. Or punch, make out, and then punch again. And his ass! Mother of God, that boy has one ass on him. I saw a picture of him in a *drools* wetsuit and he was standing from the side and his ass was like WHOA. I think I stared at the picture for 10 minutes trying to fathom how a boy could have such an ample rear on him. He also looks like he is expecting in that picture, which I thought was funny because he normally looks pretty thin in clothes. And look at it in the second picture here. Wow. DAT ASS. Not average indeed. That ass is SCREAMING for a spanking. But I am getting off topic here. Besides, not everyone thinks he is in a relationship with Harry. I just think he is gay. Methinks the lady doth protest too much. He's like a real life Wally Terzinsky. And you know what? If he really is gay and is having a fake relationship*, then he should be ashamed of himself. And his girlfriend should be ashamed of herself for feeding into the lies.

*basing this on the assumption that he is not NOT okay with his sexuality. If he is not, then that is a whole other story, because no one should be forced out of the closet if they are not ready.

Dear Lord, I hope my favorite ONTD Louis-hating member roguedandelion responds to the article. His (yes, I finally confirmed it is male) hatred of Louis is golden.

8:40PM: Michigan Man Dies At Polls, Comes Back To Life To Vote

The hell?

10:00PM: Having a dumb moment here. Did Obama take Jersey or it hasn't been confirmed?

10:21PM: These electoral maps are giving me a headache. And I can't help but wonder- who did my king vote for? Did he vote? Andrew? ANDREW! Did you vote?!

10:26PM: A screenshot of a retweet from Andrew's daddy. And another. Same tweet, different comment. Sounds like Andrew may come from a fairly liberal family. His attitude towards things puts me in the mind of someone is pretty liberal, although I have had plenty of wrong impressions of people before. He's said before his parents were hippies, and I have never seen a conservative hippy, so....oh well. Just another thing to add to his list of awesomeness. His old man seems pretty cool. Guess Andrew had to get it from somewhere. And his dad is so proud of him. It makes me laugh, in a good way. I'd be pretty damn proud if he was my son, too.

10:34PM: ALL OF THE BLUE IN THE NORTHEAST. IT'S SO GLORIOUS! *sobs*

11:01PM: Huffpo has Obama at 244 electoral votes.

11:18PM: My mother just ran into the room screaming "HE WON! HE WON!", hugged me, and then she burst into tears.