BLASPHEMY

No Food Factory tonight. Not one episode.

LOLOLOLOLOLOL

My FWA was complaining to me earlier that she kept having to kill ants at her desk and she didn't understand why she would have them. Really? You don't know why?

Random Thoughts

Although it should come as no surprise, that was a quick 3 day weekend. Didn't really do anything spectacular. Went to Seaside yesterday. Never again will I go there on a holiday weekend, although after yesterday I wouldn't care if I never went back there again period. And look, I love my nephew to death but his temper tantrums every time we go out are starting to get a little tiring. I have never seen a toddler throw such terrible tantrums in my life- screaming ungodly, crying, kicking, hitting his mother. He's a good sweet kid most of the time, but then he turns into the kind of kid I cannot stand. I can't even tell you how many stared at him yesterday during his fit.

I found out from my sister yesterday that my FWA went to some fair on Friday night....with one of my coworkers. One of the ones who has bad-mouthed her the most. The one who sits and laughs at her every time she asks patients for their ID (my FWA asks them for it in this extremely high pitched voice and a lot of the times the patients have to ask her to repeat what she said). Those people are just completely fucking unbelievable. They are the phoniest bitches I have ever met. Everyone is so sweet to each others faces it could give you diabetes and then rip each other apart behind their backs. Oh except if you're Miss V. Then you're apparently untouchable and no one can ever talk about you. Just like that fat trouble-making bitch Monica that worked there back when I worked there before. No one could ever bad-mouth her either.

I still just have to laugh how my FWA remains friends with Monica after what she did before when she deliberately created trouble between my FWA and the racist bitch. But I guess that's what happens when you're so desperate for everyone to like you. 

I feel like I have never left middle school.

UGH

Earlier I was eating dry Cheerios and the lower left side of my mouth started to feel funny. After I finished the cereal I ate a banana and while I was eating it I felt something grind in the back on the left side and then felt something really hard in my mouth. I spit out a hard piece of beige and thought oh no, I hope that is not my crown. And sure enough when I looked in the mirror, part of my crown was chipped off. What a great way to start out my three day weekend. FML.

5/23: I was awake at 9 this morning so I called my dentist office to see what to do and the girl told me I could come in at 11, but I might have to wait a while to be seen. I ended up only having to wait about 40 minutes (which is nothing compared to my gyno office; I had a follow up scheduled on Tuesday for 10:15 and I wasn't seen until almost 11:30) and the chipped area was sanded down some and the dentist offered for me to come back and have it replaced for free. Technically I could leave it just the way it is, but I opted to have it replaced.

Lyrics Of The Day

From "Mid-Life Crustacean":

You're old
(you're old)
Groaning like a geezer
Hear yourself a-crackin' like an old has-been
Look at yourself, old man, you've got multiple chins
'Cause you're old...

Song Of The Day

I neither like nor dislike this song; rather, I am intrigued by it:

Random Thoughts

Three days down, two more to go until a much anticipated and needed 3 day weekend! Especially after this week. The work is kind of backed up, so I (and only I) have been doing overtime and will do it tomorrow and maybe Friday as well. I'm burnt!

So far my being on Prozac every other day again has not done much for my digestive system. It is nothing like when I initially took it every other day. I just had 2 weeks straight of diarrhea (minus the weekends for some reason) and bloating and this week I am still bloated, but now I am extremely constipated. I would imagine with the ridiculously lengthy half-life of Prozac that some of the extra dosing is STILL in my system, so I don't know if it has anything to do with it. All I know is I am incredibly annoyed, uncomfortable, and miserable.

Song Of The Day

Random Thoughts

I swear every Sunday I feel worse and worse about going back to work. And I am getting to a point where I feel like the only way I am ever going to get out of that place is for it to close down or I drop dead. And I don't like feeling like I am stuck somewhere.

On Friday, our newest MA was leaving (at a time she designated herself) and I heard my FWA say something to her about seeing her the next day. And I thought son of a bitch, that means she was probably invited to the birthday party as well. But now I don't know if she actually wasn't invited though, or was and just didn't show up, because out of all of the photo albums that were posted yesterday on Facebook, she was not tagged in a single one. And if she was invited, then that defeats the theory that my family tried to convince me of- that my FWA was only invited because she has a baby, because this MA only has an adult son.

I don't know what in the hell Ms. Hail to the V's issue is with me, because I have never done a damn thing to her. And if she is still holding something against me because I came in with my nephew on the same day she brought her son in (when he was newborn) then she needs to sit the fuck down because 1) I wasn't working there then and therefore didn't even know who she was or that she had a baby and 2) like I knew she would come in with her son that same time. Sometimes she seems like she is cool with me and then she does some rude ass shit, like always leaving without saying a word (I think maybe once or twice she has actually said good-bye to me). She ignores me in the morning, so I always make the effort to say good-morning even though I really don't want to. I don't get it. I don't get why she would have a problem with me. I don't expect everyone to like me, but I don't appreciate being disliked for no damn reason. Or there is just the possibility she has no problem with me and is just a miserable bitch. But I doubt it.

And I am so sick and tired of every time something she didn't do being questioned, everyone runs to her defense and says she didn't have time to do it. It's always she didn't have time to do it. Oh, but she always has time to play on her phone or talk to my FWA for a half-hour + or play on Facebook or Groupon or print stuff out for her kid for school. Sure, okay.

The other day she got up and left without saying a word and I said to my FWA "did you ever feel like just turning to someone and asking them what the fuck is their problem with you?". She said she doesn't know why anyone would have a problem with me, since I am very quiet and mostly stick to myself, and she claims no one has ever said anything to her about me, but this is my FWA we're talking about. I wouldn't trust her as far as I could throw her. After all, she is the same person who supposedly said that if my boss should be getting on anyone it should be me. Then again, this also came from our newest MA, who I am honestly starting to question if I can trust. Frankly I don't know who can I trust in there or anywhere anymore.

I have been so fucking miserable since Friday. My sister had people over on Friday night and I didn't even go because I felt so miserable. I feel depressed as hell and I don't even know why.

10:17AM: I just realized that minus tomorrow, Ms. Hail to the V is going to be in the office all week. Out-fucking-standing! Just what I want to see all week!

Song Of The Day