Saturday, October 29, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
The Awesome Of The Day
"Kids" on the new episodes of Beavis & Butthead? Totally would have NEVER seen that coming.
*sniffs, voice cracking* My heart is swelling with glee.
*sniffs, voice cracking* My heart is swelling with glee.
Monday, October 24, 2011
Quote Of The Day
From "Godfellas":
[Scene: Bender "swims" through space to The Blue Danube.]
Malachi: Oh, Metal Lord, hear my prayer.
[Bender sighs.]
Bender: [irate] Yes, Malachi, what is it this time?
Malachi: My Lord, the infidels on your back no longer believe in you. They say their prayers go unheeded.
Bender: Of course they're unheeded. How am I supposed to hear prayers coming out of my ass?
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Random Thoughts
Week 1 of unemployment down....an unknown amount more to go. Just sitting here, enjoying an angel food cake. A non-moldy one this time. Blech. I happened to look at the date on the box the next day and it said sell by October 3. Cripes. No wonder it was freaking moldy! And just like with googling it, it probably would have helped if I had looked at the date before eating it, right?
And now I get to look forward to getting two more cavities filled tomorrow. Huzzah! But that should be the last of them, because I had my entire mouth x-rayed when I had my teeth cleaned this past Tuesday and that was all that was seen. So, all in all, I haven't had my teeth cleaned since 2009 (which absolutely kills me, because I have always been someone who faithfully went every 6 months, until I lost my initial dental insurance), and I had 4 total cavities. I guess that is not too terrible, but still. I do try to take care of my teeth. I never ever brush my teeth less than twice a day- for the full 2 minutes. I am not so good with the whole flossing, although I do try to do it every night at least. And I suspect that is my whole problem, because all of my cavities were in the very back molars, where I have a lot of trouble keeping and getting food out of.
I was on Facebook yesterday (actually I always am; I don't really do anything, I just never log out; but that is beside the point) and my WA sends me a message that the office is chaotic and everything. Apparently a lot of stuff that is supposed to be done in our sister office is still needing to be done there. And then she tells me that she and another coworker are doing my job. Now I know I don't always have the best reactions to things, but I got very upset when she told me that. It was like a fucking punch to the stomach. I don't understand why she would tell me that. Especially since she knew how upset I was over losing my job and seen me cry many times about it.
But later on it occured to me that on my last day she happened to ask our boss who would be doing my job (there would still be some to be done) and my boss says that she would be doing it and my WA actually turned and said "oh well I won't be billing anymore so maybe I can learn". I was just like really? You are honestly saying this on my last day of work? I was already ticked off because right before she had came in my boss was talking to me about it being my last day and to just let her know if I need references or anything and my WA comes in and just stands there listening. I felt like snapping do you fucking mind? This conversation does not involve you.
Every single time I think I am starting to maybe come out of this black hole, something drags me back down again. That set me off yesterday, then I was out and I happened to look down at my hands and they looked a funny color and I could feel my anxiety levels rising and I stopped in the restroom and was looking in the mirror at my face and seeing things that more than likely are not there and my anxiety levels started to reach nuclear levels and I felt like I was going to blow from it. This goddamn fear of Addison's is just not going away for anything.
Now I don't know if this is something that is just part of certain mental illnesses or not, but having the fear not going away only ignites another fire, one of almost paranoia- why is it not going away?! Why cannot I not stop worring about it? Is it some kind of sign?
I am starting to feel like I am losing my grip on reality and eventually all ties to reality are going to be cut. And it's scaring the hell out of me. I am absolutely terrified of losing my mind.
I am also starting to get really scared that something really malicious is going on in my brain. Anxiety is powerful, but I am having a hard time believing it could cause this much trouble.
An even bigger annoyance is I already have another one waiting in the wing. One that previously terrified me before, but is pretty much on par with Addison's, maybe just a little scarier.
And now I get to look forward to getting two more cavities filled tomorrow. Huzzah! But that should be the last of them, because I had my entire mouth x-rayed when I had my teeth cleaned this past Tuesday and that was all that was seen. So, all in all, I haven't had my teeth cleaned since 2009 (which absolutely kills me, because I have always been someone who faithfully went every 6 months, until I lost my initial dental insurance), and I had 4 total cavities. I guess that is not too terrible, but still. I do try to take care of my teeth. I never ever brush my teeth less than twice a day- for the full 2 minutes. I am not so good with the whole flossing, although I do try to do it every night at least. And I suspect that is my whole problem, because all of my cavities were in the very back molars, where I have a lot of trouble keeping and getting food out of.
I was on Facebook yesterday (actually I always am; I don't really do anything, I just never log out; but that is beside the point) and my WA sends me a message that the office is chaotic and everything. Apparently a lot of stuff that is supposed to be done in our sister office is still needing to be done there. And then she tells me that she and another coworker are doing my job. Now I know I don't always have the best reactions to things, but I got very upset when she told me that. It was like a fucking punch to the stomach. I don't understand why she would tell me that. Especially since she knew how upset I was over losing my job and seen me cry many times about it.
But later on it occured to me that on my last day she happened to ask our boss who would be doing my job (there would still be some to be done) and my boss says that she would be doing it and my WA actually turned and said "oh well I won't be billing anymore so maybe I can learn". I was just like really? You are honestly saying this on my last day of work? I was already ticked off because right before she had came in my boss was talking to me about it being my last day and to just let her know if I need references or anything and my WA comes in and just stands there listening. I felt like snapping do you fucking mind? This conversation does not involve you.
Every single time I think I am starting to maybe come out of this black hole, something drags me back down again. That set me off yesterday, then I was out and I happened to look down at my hands and they looked a funny color and I could feel my anxiety levels rising and I stopped in the restroom and was looking in the mirror at my face and seeing things that more than likely are not there and my anxiety levels started to reach nuclear levels and I felt like I was going to blow from it. This goddamn fear of Addison's is just not going away for anything.
Now I don't know if this is something that is just part of certain mental illnesses or not, but having the fear not going away only ignites another fire, one of almost paranoia- why is it not going away?! Why cannot I not stop worring about it? Is it some kind of sign?
I am starting to feel like I am losing my grip on reality and eventually all ties to reality are going to be cut. And it's scaring the hell out of me. I am absolutely terrified of losing my mind.
I am also starting to get really scared that something really malicious is going on in my brain. Anxiety is powerful, but I am having a hard time believing it could cause this much trouble.
An even bigger annoyance is I already have another one waiting in the wing. One that previously terrified me before, but is pretty much on par with Addison's, maybe just a little scarier.
Quote Of The Day
From "Crimes Of The Hot":
Van: Calling all scientists, calling all scientists. Be advised there will be a worldwide conference on global warming in Kyoto, Japan.
[A man runs to the van]
Man: I've got a degree in homeopathic medicine!
Van: You've got a degree in baloney! [sprays the man with a water cannon]
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Friday, October 21, 2011
Quote Of The Day
From "A Pharoah To Remember":
Bender: Come on, guys. Pharaoh's countin' on us. Work faster, like this. [He pushes a block up the side of the tomb and the Osiran runs after him, whipping as he goes. He stops to catch his breath.] You call that motivating me? Don't just whip with your arms. The power comes from your hips. Like this.
[He takes the whip and whips himself.]
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Ick! Ick! Ick!
I opened up an angel food cake and found mold near the end, so I ripped off a piece with the mold on it and sniffed the rest of the cake. Smelled fine. I ate it. Tasted fine. Then I decided to google whether it was safe to do so (yes I probably should have done that first, eh?). Find out not so much. So I immediately panic and run right for the bathroom and do something I haven't done in a while- force myself to throw up. So now I am not only nauseous from what I read, but I have a burning ring of fire in my stomach! Not to mention that I happen to be allergic to penicillen!
I know you all enjoyed learning this, right? RIGHT?!!!!!!!!!
See what happens when you become unemployed? You share stupid inane shit!
I know you all enjoyed learning this, right? RIGHT?!!!!!!!!!
See what happens when you become unemployed? You share stupid inane shit!
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