Random Thoughts

I was going through my daily gossip site pages earlier and I came across an article about John Stamos taking a young woman to Disneyland. The girl had contracted meningococcemia and lost all of her limbs. I haven't gotten anxious over meningococcemia in a while, but reading about it has reeled it back into my life. I get so fearful that one day I am going to contract something like that, lose consciousness, and someone is going to go against my wishes of not amputating anything. An advance directive may ease some of the anxiety, but I still wouldn't feel completely at ease. I have made it clear to my family that if something like that happened to me to NOT, under absolutely any circumstances, allow any amputations. Whether they would actually follow through on my wishes, I don't know. And I don't like that uncertainty.

And speaking of uncertainty, I am annoyed with how lousy I have been feeling. And this fear coming back into the picture is not helping matters. I wake up every day feeling exhausted and like I am hungover. And I have been sleeping okay. It's just been taking me forever to fall asleep because my head just runs and runs and runs. And I have been having some weird dreams. Can't remember most of them, but I do remember having a dream one night I was hospitalized with Amanda Bynes. Whatever that was about. The stranger part is, it's not the first time I have dreamt of being hospitalized in a psych hospital with a celebrity, either.

And during the day, I just feel lousy overall. My head feels strange and I get random pains in different spots throughout the day. The pressure in my ears constantly fluctuates (especially in the left). I keep feeling like someone is blowing in my left ear. Every time I cry, I get so stuffed up I can't breathe. I imagines it has to do with my allergies/sinuses. But nothing in my area is high.

I just read some article over on ONTD about some ugly ass old bitch who says any woman who is happy to not have children is a liar. O rly? You know what? I am getting REALLY tired of these miserable ass bitches- probably mostly all women who hated that they took on the role of motherhood- saying that child-free people are selfish, miserable, etc. I just do not understand why it is such a big fucking deal to choose to not have kids.

JFC, if it's that big of a deal for someone to shit out a kid, then fine, I'll do it. And since I'd make a lousy mother, and assuming I do not have endometriosis, I am probably fertile as a cockroach. So not only will I reproduce, I won't stop at one. I will pop out a whole bunch. And I will go on welfare. But who gives a shit? I fulfilled my biological duty, right????

Ew, I just saw a picture of two cockroaches doing the nasty. And I am trying not to laugh.

Video Of The Day

Yes, American Dad introduced me to this song; man, that is a great episode:



I wonder why this video is so short. The version I have on iTunes is over 8 minutes long and I swear, it feels like time flies when I listen to it. I start it and before I know it, it's already over.

Song Of The Day

I have no idea why I love this song so much; all I know is I loved it even more when I heard it on Futurama:

The Awesome/Video Of The Day

*sniffs* I can't believe it's been one year already since I saw them live! And today is a frigging gorgeous day! Sunny, kind of on the chilly side. Like a perfect fall day. Oh, sure, Peter Frampton gets a nice night! He has only been performing for over 150 years! ARGH!!*

*for the record, I have nothing against Peter Frampton

And now......

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ETA 5:03PM: Showed it to Mom. Her response- "they're weird". She thinks that is weird? I guess I'll have to show her the video for "Flash Delirium" one day.

Song Of The Day

"And we are far from home, but we're so happy".....yeah:

The [Awesome] Tweet Of The Day

Twitter / whoisMGMT: GLOBAL WARNING THREAT LEVEL ...

And I don't know who performed at Musikfest tonight, but tonight was everything I wanted the weather to be like for my trip to Musikfest, so whoever you are, you suck!

What Is The Big Idea????

The 40 Most Anticipated Albums For The Rest of 2013

No MGMT? IMMENSE FAIL

Also, I thought they were supposed to announce US tour dates for November and December last month. LIARS. And screw you, One Republic, for having a beautiful night!

Random Thoughts

Wow, I don't know what is going on with me this week, but I feel like shit. I pretty much assumed it was just due to the change in weather, since it's been somewhat cooler. My throat feels sore, I'm achy (my shoulder joints have especially been sore), I can't concentrate. I go to bed exhausted yet I am still having trouble falling asleep. And despite having been sleeping pretty well otherwise, I wake up and I feel so exhausted. And when I finally get out of bed and go into the bathroom, I look like shit. My eyelids have been so swollen. And I have felt so damn depressed, which I am not sure if I just feel depressed in general, depressed due to feeling so shitty, or a mixture of both.

I started a new batch of probiotics tonight. They are 5 billion CFUs and contain about 8 different strains. I would like for them to work better than my usual pills, but I'm not getting my hopes up. It would be nice, especially since I woke up extremely bloated. Dammit, if there is one vegetable I love more than anything in the world, it is corn. I love corn, especially corn on the cob. And it has to be one of the worst bloaters. Most people I know bitch that corn makes them go to the bathroom. Not me. It does the exact opposite. Then again, there aren't many things that don't constipate me.

I couldn't sleep the other night and I ended up watching the last 10 minutes of some documentary on opiate addicts. And it was showing all of these babies in the NICU who had been exposed to opiates in the womb and were all addicted to the shit. One poor baby had to have drops of morphine in his bottle to help with the withdrawal symptoms. And the doctors and nurses were talking about how it would be awhile before any effects of the drugs would be apparent. And to tell you the truth, the morphine bottle baby already didn't look right. It made me so mad. And yet child-free people are selfish for not wanting to have children? What, it's okay because at least these people are fulfilling their biological duty? Fuck that. It's selfish, pure and simple. My decision isn't going to ruin anyone's life. That is what I am trying to prevent from happening. Shit, any potential offspring sitting in my ovaries should be thanking their lucky stars I am not turning them into human beings. JFC, that is a horrifying thought.

And finally, since it was the first night, my requisite Musikfest comment- why does Carly Rae Jepsen deserve such a nice night?! Ugh!

OMG

If you ever wonder why no matter how much I complain about it, I still return to ONTD, here is a perfect example; I'm laughing so hard at the comments, I am crying:

Oh No They Didn't! - Katy Perry farts in front of Robert Pattinson therefore she's 'not dating him'

Quote Of The Day

From "The Sting":

Leela: Are you saying I'm going crazy?
Farnsworth: No, no! No one's saying that. But I'm certainly thinking it loudly.